Chris M

And so far I’ve managed to maintain a 3.5 GPA while working full time AND going to school full time.

I’m really proud of myself.

i got 3 cases of nicotrol inhalers from my dr. yesterday. i need to set a date now.

like the days I need most to, seeking God can be so hard to do.

Funny how a lonely day,
can make a person say:
What good is my life?

Funny how a breaking heart,
can make me start to say:
What good is my life?

Till I look around and see,
this great big world is part of me
And my life.

This is my life.

Today, tomorrow,
love will come and find me.
But that’s the way that
I was born to be.

This is me.
This is me.

This is my life.

And I dont give a damn for lost emotions.
Ive such a lot of love Ive got to give.

Let me live.
Let me live.

Sometime when I feel afraid,
I think of what a mess Ive made
Of my life.

Crying over my mistakes,
forgetting all the breaks Ive had

In my life.

I was put on earth to be,
a part of this great world is me

And my life.

Guess Ill just add up the score,
and count the things Im grateful for

In my life.

This Is my life.

Today, tomorrow,
love will come and find me.
But thats the way that
I was born to be.

This is me.
This is me.

This is my life.

And I dont give a damn
for lost emotions.
Ive such a lot of love
Ive got to give.

Let me live.
Let me live.

This is my life.
This is my life.

This is my life.

and an understanding of His will for me.

And I’ve gotten the incredible gift of sobriety. In the last year I’ve attended about 600 meetings. I work with a sponsor. I take steps. I sponsor others. I do not want to lose this gift.

I have really had it with Boise.

Who wants to know a politician that well?

you’re stupid

This goal actually started out as “not give up on myself”.

I hear people say all the time that ‘life is different’ and I question whether they have done it right. That’s not what the book promises and that hasn’t been my experience. Over and over the book talks about life getting BETTER. That’s what has happened for me. Life is BETTER.

*Read the book – over and over and over.
*Find a sponsor – someone you can trust, someone who is contented, someone who reaches out to the next suffering alcoholic/addict and shares a message of hope as it is laid out in the book, someone who works with a sponsor of their own – and then
*do everything they suggest as long as they can show you where in the book it is suggested you do it.
*Do it to the best of your ability, and
*do it as quickly as you can. None of this 2 years to write an inventory shit and none of this being on steps 1, 2 or 3 for anything more than a month, TOTAL, for all 3. Get it done! (What, you have something more important to do than save your life?)
*Remember, it’s not about YOU – it’s about the next suffering alcoholic/addict so you have to
*PASS IT ON! We only get this new and useful life through
*service and self sacrifice for others.

Remember what St. Francis said. “If God can work through me, He can work through ANYBODY.”

You can catch up with me at The Last Chance Texaco

I love your guts.

This goal actually started out as “not give up on myself”.

I hear people say all the time that ‘life is different’ and I question whether they have done it right. That’s not what the book promises and that hasn’t been my experience. Over and over the book talks about life getting BETTER. That’s what has happened for me. Life is BETTER.

*Read the book – over and over and over.
*Find a sponsor – someone you can trust, someone who is contented, someone who reaches out to the next suffering alcoholic/addict and shares a message of hope as it is laid out in the book, someone who works with a sponsor of their own – and then
*do everything they suggest as long as they can show you where in the book it is suggested you do it.
*Do it to the best of your ability, and
*do it as quickly as you can. None of this 2 years to write an inventory shit and none of this being on steps 1, 2 or 3 for anything more than a month, TOTAL, for all 3. Get it done! (What, you have something more important to do than save your life?)
*Remember, it’s not about YOU – it’s about the next suffering alcoholic/addict so you have to
*PASS IT ON! We only get this new and useful life through
*service and self sacrifice for others.

Remember what St. Francis said. “If God can work through me, He can work through ANYBODY.”

You can catch up with me at The Last Chance Texaco

I love your guts.

I got a job working the drive-through at McDonald’s recently. I pretty much ask people that all day now.

I can say I’ve completed this goal.

maybe “who’s gonna love you now” by griffin

i’m checking in to a treatment center in six days and then a theraputic community after that.

last chance.

cross your fingers.

http://methedup.net

I wouldn’t slash just anyone’s tires but when your target has earned it and if you know you can get away with it, go for it man.

Just when you thought it was safe to go back out into the world you meet someone like Dan.

Enough Said.

it’s never going to happen

If I were a nation I’d say that my citizens lack the political will. I can’t think of a polite way to say what I and my family lack to make this happen.

If we can hold on through the night
We have a chance to find the sunshine
Let’s keep on looking for the light

Cheezy, I know. But I find myself at a place where it helps; where it makes sense. I find myself at a place where I need more help than I feel like I deserve. So I’m taking a step that I’ve never taken before. At least not willingly or honestly.

It’s not too late, we should be giving
Only with love can we climb
It’s not too late, not while we’re living
Let’s put our hands out in time

It feels like it’s too late. I should have been asking for help before I relapsed; before I lost my home; before I lost virtually everything I own. I should have asked for help before I realized just how easy it would be to take a sharp knife and ring the curtain down and before I decided that a better use for a sharp knife would be inserting it in Dan’s tires, though I have to say that did bring some releif. (It may actually to on my “Worth Doing” list.) But maybe it isn’t too late to pull a happy life out of the wreckage. I’m bringing in the big guns though. I’m checking in as an in-patient. If they keep me any less than sixty days I don’t think I’ll be repaired.

There’s got to be a morning after
We’re moving closer to the shore
I know we’ll be there by tomorrow
And we’ll escape the darkness
We won’t be searching anymore

is a joy.

Everyone should have one. A tangerine tree too.