BAllison

http://www.lifehack.org/articles/management/how-to-build-a-reliable-work-ethic.html

Hrm…
I have no determination to do things that are difficult for me. The only things I actually get done and put effort into are things I enjoy.
I really need a kick to get started, such as a looming deadline or the threat of repercussions. I have about a month or so to finish the research that will serve as the foundation for my thesis, and I’m finding it difficult to really get motivated (since, in my mind, “a month” is far in the distant future).

How will I go about accomplishing the acquisition of a work ethic? Not sure. I think it will involve imposing a strict schedule in what I need to get done and when…

Aiyaa.

Got invited to their most recent concert in Montreal… couldn’t go. /sigh

I wuv wuv wuv them.

This is a silly goal, since I’ll always be adding movies to it.
I’m still watching as many movies as possible, a little bit harder with all of my studying and inability to reach many theaters.

So, I guess this is me giving up… only in 43Things, not in the actual scheme of things.

Went to a bunch of department stores. Usually I would have gone nuts.

...I couldn’t buy a thing. I had the money, the plastic… I just didn’t want to.
I know after the rush of shopping is over, one is left with an empty feeling… but this is new to me. I’m empty even of the trappings of low self-worth.

I bet my parents are happy though…

Haven’t written in this for a while, I guess.
Since, I enrolled in a language school for the summer and am now living in Kyoto.

Honestly, after actually living here for an extended period, I’ve come to terms with the fact that I learned next to nothing during my language courses at college… full immersion? Yeah, that’s where it’s at.

it was a means to an end…
but i no longer desire the end.

maybe i’ll end up doing it anyway, but there’s not nearly as much of an inscentive.

i feel like i’m cheating…

god bless the “miracle drugs”.

not as strong as what i lost, but love all the same and i appreciate it.

...my first reaction was: isn’t it always that way?

when really for a lot of people it’s always the opposite. (wish i was one of those people)

uh oh, this is thought provoking…

my previous love was unstable, medicating, and passionate (adhering more to the real definition, coming from the latin “to suffer”).
i filled the voids with what they gave me.

now i’m a little more clear as far as what is mine, and what isn’t. although a great cause of this is the cocktail of meds i’m currently on, i still can admit it.

though at the same time, they do a number on my ability to feel…

too many variables.

Going to Japan for 2 years, then coming back for a BA in analytical cinema.

I’m down with that.

You know what?

It doesn’t matter…and I’m okay with that.

I guess the key is being okay with youself.

Don’t get me wrong, I haven’t cleared that hurdle yet. But I can see it and I’m gaining speed.

Monday: Brigadoon
Tuesday: Why We Fight, The Bicycle Thief
Wednesday: Transamerica
Thursday: Freedomland, Good Night and Good Luck, and Munich

I nearly bought a personal oxygen concentrator.
And then I realized that I didn’t know what “frugality” meant anymore.
I’m giving my credit card a little break. :P

Damn snow. ::harumph::

Damn…this takes a lot of effort. ><

Here’s the trick. Hurt your legs.
Ha ha.

I dunno. My suitemates joke a lot about how I zip in and out of the suite. I’m always in such a rush.

I really have to calm the hell down.

Well, I’m leaving next month to Beijing for Spring Break, after that I’m going to Japan for 8-weeks during the summer, then 18 months in a college-prep school, then 4 years as an undergrad.
I hope I never come back…

Where better than in Japan?
::grin::

Filling out applications for language and colllege-prep programs now!
Waseda/Nihon University here I come! :D