BabySteps10

I realized that I never really completed my story on here.
So here is what happened—-

I e-mailed him as planned and point-blank just asked him if he wanted to get together at some point during the summer. (I of course wanted to meet up with him because I wanted to tell him how I felt.) That is all I said to him in the letter.

I received a reply shortly after and to my surprise he COMPLETELY ignored what I asked. He just kind of rambled on and on about random stuff.

I was absolutely infuriated. After yelling and crying and just talking it out with my girls--I decided to e-mail him back once again. In this e-mail I basically said-well that’s great (referring to all the random shit he talked about) and asked AGAIN if we could see each other just once this summer.

This time his reply actually answered my question-he basically said that he was too busy and that the only way I could see him was to meet at this work place during his break. Of course I did not feel comfortable with this—like at all.

So I apologized but told him that I would not be able to see him during that time.

So in our last e-mail I closed it simply--“Well, if I don’t see ya-Have an amazing summer and Good luck with everything!” To which he simply replied—-”Thanks Case”

So unfortunately I never got a chance to tell him how I feel. However, with that e-mail I did get a little bit of closer. Not enough to move on. The last time I saw him was 3 months ago yesterday and I miss him terribly. I just wish that I had one last chance—-that I could see him one more time.

Maybe I will—-who knows?

For now I am just trying to move on and figure out who I am without him in my life.

I wish everyone good luck in this goal. And please—-if you have the opportunity to tell the person you love that you love them….take it!

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I’m working on this one.

So here is the new plan. I am going to e-mail him one last night and suggest that we meet up one last time. Even if he doesn’t want to, if he just sucks it up and agrees it would be the greatest gift. Hopefully we will meet up and when we do, I am going to tell him eveything, tell him how I feel. I am extremly nervous about this, but I know in my heart this is the right thing to do. It is what my instincts are telling me. I absolutly do not expect anything in return from him. All I ask is that he respects the courage is took to do this and listen and give me any and all feedback.

I am blessed to have the true friends that I have for they support me no matter what. I could not have gotten through any of this without them.

So hopefully this is the last chapter in the story. I am looking foward to some sort of closure so that I can really move on with my life.