I’m working on it but geeze sometimes my emotions just get so out of control! Its really hard for me to control my emotions when i’m angry a just feel a wave rush over me i feel hot and i could just explode….when i get upset in anyway i just feel myself go though the roof. and I cry and shake and just feel like i have no control over myself. I wish i could just turn it off.
Especially around “that time” i’m like a bitch on wheels. any little thing can send me completely flying off the handle bars. and i really do go over bored…scary…I really need to get this in check
Sep 25, 11:12AM PDT | 0 comments
I’ve gotten more serious about quitting. I though quitting cold turkey would never work for me…but its all about will power. Its about Really wanting to quit. when I first stopped i whined myself down…I’ve brought the gum and have significantly reduced my amount i was smoking to just 1 a day….If i can just have 1 a day couldn’t i go without any?
So, I decided that I really do want to quit. I told my self, no, i don’t “need” it and I finally was able to make it past 3 days ( i would always lose it on the 3rd day, the hardest day! )
I went an entire week without a cigarette!
The hard part was being around friends who smoke…so now i’m a social smoker? I just have maybe 1 or 2 (or a few) if i go out with friends who smoke or if i have a drink I’m like a manic looking for one. but i have not brought a pack in 3 weeks. I have made progress But i would like to kick the habit for good!
Sep 25, 10:56AM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
Ok, So want to quit…but maybe I’m not trying hard enough.
as of recent, things in my life have become (believe it or not) even more stressful.its been becoming increasingly more difficult for me to quit…I’m back up for about 4 a day sometimes more.
I’m trying to find a way to cope with life when it gets stressful, without smoking cigarettes…..and its has not been easy.
For the past month, I’ll say “this is my last pack…when this is done that’s it!”
(there is no way I’m flush a pack that cost $9.00!)
But i don’t get very far in the day without feeling like I am about to lose it if i don’t get one…
Dec 17, 2008, 09:54PM PST | 0 comments
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