I'm doing 43 things
I was hurtling down the road to a broken heart, and I didn’t even know it.
The love of my life was struggling with a decision to start seeing other people (read this as, devote full attention to “a friend” he already knew)and release me.
Looking back now, I know that there were many signs and signals that I chose to ignore…I trusted against my own better judgement and intuition, that this person would not betray us, that he would keep his promises.
I missed opportunities to change my own way of thinking, to be more assertive in expressing and going for what I wanted, to passionately share my deepest feelings with this man of my heart. Because I did not do my part, he could not do his, and so, one year later, he has taken someone else to meet his family, and the plans he made with me will now be fulfilled with her.
Know what you want. Say it. Express it, make it known. Use the energy normally claimed by fear or procrastination and apply it directly to your most heartfelt desires.
They can come true, but you must not take your eyes off the prize…not for one moment.
If you do, there is always someone waiting to steal it from you.
Always.
Be true to yourself, fight for what you want, and pay attention, always, always, always.
Vigilance and attention.
These things require you, us, me, everyone, to always love and respect the self first and foremost. Ground that self-esteem, provide it with a solid foundation that will not waver, will not falter, will not be distracted. Not by work, or family, or boredom, or impatience, not by being old or young or lacking funding or sophistication.
If you love someone, then do so with your whole heart, your whole mind, and all the variable spaces in between. That includes yourself, and whatever you consider to be a creator: God, Allah, Buddah, or the Universal Power.
