I'm doing 11 things
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BeautyInBreakdown's Life List
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1. Write my memoir on addiction
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2. Write 750 words a day using 750words.com
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3. Start and get through my first semester of school
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4. learn palmistry
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5. Get in touch with my femininity
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6. start seeing a therapist
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7. finish my tattoo sleeve
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8. write more letters
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9. Find one thing each day that makes me happy, and record it in a notebook
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10. Overcome Addiction
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11. smile at strangers
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Recent entries
SO, I saw Rachel, my therapist, today. And I’m scared to go back. And I don’t know if I will.
It was a huge weep session. I’m not good with emotions, and she pulls them out and lays them on the table for me to look at. That scared me, hardbody.
I want to acomplish this goal, and have one of my list. But sometimes I’m a bit of a pussy…
I made an appointment with a therapist called Rachel Stebbins, located at Southboro Medical group.
When I was on probation, I saw her because it was court-ordered. When I got off, I stopped seeing her. Not because she wasn’t kind or helpful-she was, very much. But because I am scared of emotions, and she would make me confront and talk about them. It scared and enraged me, and I would leave her office crying every time.
I understand now that confronting my emotions is a good thing, however frightening it may be. It’s going to be alot of hard work to open up, but I think in the long run it will be good.
Hopefully I can get the courage to see her on a regular basis.
