BeautyR_08

Some of that light I couldnt see is now flickering in.
I met a guy..
younger..as usual..They always tend to be younger than me.
But this time only a year and a half..not bad at all.

Hes made every boy ive ever liked..a BOY.
He makes me smile and feel like theres a reason to wake up
He brings out the best in me and every time I see his face, smile, text, anything..it makes any day brilliant!
I could, No I can..I can see myself falling so in love with him that I would never have to breathe again.

We havent expressed our feelings to eachother just yet but I can tell how they are.
Equal.

I fell in love over again with God last night.
Everything I have been searching for has came out in the open.
God loves me, he told me.
Though I have made huge mistakes this past year he has erased them from thought and is blessing me with so much.
I love him dearly

I am nothing
He is everything

So much I forget the love he has for me
The plans he set out
A friend recently said this to me
“never forget that comdemnation is never the heart of god no matter what you have done or where you have been
his love covers a multitudes of sins
and his love is enough
its more than enough
its the only thing you’ll ever need
never forget to walk in the feedon he won for you
cuz you are amazing
really.”
I want that to be the reason I live. I want to live FOR him.
Not this world, not these human desires I wish for so much.
I have sinned, more than I ever thought, but its true, He won that freedom for me. And although I have made mistakes, and still living in some, God loves me. And the least I can do is do his work. Its a struggle, Its a battle, but for his love, its more than worth it.
To overcome everything holding me back is a challenge, but I plan to defeat it. I plan to grow so much in the Lord that no words, thoughts or actions will pull me back down.