Gratitude and Happiness:
- The sun was shining and beautiful weather this week.
- I have slept in this week.
- I have been able to attend the conference I wanted
- A free pass was given to me as a gift for the conference
- A friend called out of the blue to talk
- I was able to stop and see my 93 year old cousin today
- I went for a walk in the middle of the day while the weather was nice
- My love called to talk on his commute home
- I got some of the place in order
- I feel happy as I look toward the end of the year work schedule.
- I am enjoying the newly found excess funding and the ability to pay my bills and get caught up with everything.
- i love my view corridors and deck
- i love how comfy my couch is
- i love the feel of my comforter
- i am enjoying the indian summer
- i am lucky to have the life i do – grateful beyond belief
- i am living my dreams
Finding peace this year has meant truly believing in myself, my work, my skills and talents, and truly stepping up to the role I play in life in order to live in a peaceful existence with myself.
So, I am at peace. The income level is restored after a stormy center of the year… My daughter is back at school, in love and succeeding in her studies… My life has the man of my dreams in it and I am so very happy with him.
My discontent is managing all the work that is now on top of me and to lead, perform and step into myself and my work in a very authentic down to earth manner, while maintaining my professionalism.
I am in peace. going away to think – which is what I need right now. After a slow walk into the work, it is at a full run and a marathon for the next year, or two. Gotta get my arms around it all.
Not storming in nor mousing in…
partly because I try to be earlier so that I can spend time greeting people properly…
and partly because I feel more comfortable in my skin.
getting comfy with my role in life.
about time! I am enough…just the way I am.
I wanted to celebrate with my girlfriend who had been so helpful to me – and to the man in my life who – in some ways – allowed me to consider more work.
But other new relationships have been supporting me…
funny, I went looking for what I felt I needed and got a series of others that found me!
I guess I can be happy with the outcomes. I still long for a mentor, a coach, a guide. I may have that in my new love! Lol
Not where I expected it, but he is lovingly, supportively in that role. As is a new client.
We just celebrated our six month anniversary. Going well and strong. We plan the future. We discuss the future. We are walking in the direction of a shared future.
I am relaxed about it. I am happy about it. We are building the infrastructure for our lives to be together…financially, real estate-wise, and work-wise – starting to walk in the direction of a true partnership.
I am happy. How can you truly meet someone and know on the first date this is someone you want to live the rest of your life with? Still not sure how it happened, but I know I would be happy to do so.
He takes the form of a financial investor. The question: aren’t all financial investors a little bit, in posture, to be accomodated – and doesn’t that appear as narcissism? By nature of the investor/partner relationship, the financial investor attempts to gain the “upper hand” – as capital is king. But I ask the question – once again – why?
Why would this be the case? But it just is. I would like to find the investor who isn’t this way. Partner as equal. Not partner as unequal.
I have really worked hard at this.
I just remind myself what it is that I can do.
And I do it.
It is good.
I managed to book the whole year’s worth of travel and get reservations made. That was a big step.
I got my team on the calendar for the next six months.
More on scheduling. A few misses. Things that weren’t right.
Overall, it was good!
Glad I did this!
Had me focus on what I hadn’t completed on my list for the year and to focus to do that.
about money, work, living spaces, what a big old barn could be, about a gentleman’s farm, about how our lives look like conjoined.
i love these conversations.
they are plentiful. they come more often than not now.
when we painted the bedroom together had some very good conversations about how life could look together.
it will work out.
We harvested goodies from the garden and spent all of Sunday during Labor Day Weekend canning. I never had before so this was a real treat. This upcoming weekend we will be focused on tomatoes for freezing and sauce, too.
We also painted our new bedroom that he has been building. Pretty color! We spend each weekend joined at the hip doing so many projects and activities together. We just love each other’s company. Spent the weekend prior touring to favorite sights while driving in the convertible enjoying the weather, each other and the beautiful vistas. Same thing with trying to take time each weekend for bike rides in beautiful settings. We look for things we both enjoy and point them out to each other. It is so small and yet so big. The closeness. The intimacy. The enjoying of each other.
We have now watched the Game of Thrones series together – something he wanted to share with me as a shared activity. And his family…so many of them…all brought together as a group for me to be a part of this.
Unbelievable how loved I feel by them. Not sure if he will be able to experience anything similar with mine. We shall see. He so wanted me to meet his family and be a part of them. They surround him and he is their collective rock. They build from him. He anchors them. And, you can see that the mantle was passed to him from the two generations before him and the two after him. He is centered in this placement. It is such a beautiful thing to witness. He has no idea what it looks like to the outside observer. He hosts them all. Tends to them all. Takes care of them all. And I, I get to take care of him. And more than ever before, I have someone who takes care of me. So very, very lovingly. So overtly and so subtly. Sometimes I can’t see how much he does it because he so predicts what my needs will be. He is someone who gives so much. I am so blessed. So loved. So fortunate.
I found him. I love him. He loves me.
Tonight…we celebrate! The long awaited reward for my work.
It is wonderful. It is wonderful to have him to share this with. I hope to make this a magical night!
For him. For me. For us.
In the meantime…I am living, and loving life with the man of my dreams.
I look back on each of these entries and I am certain that where I am in the moment I am writing these entries each year, that the moment I am standing in – is the best moment of my year. also, that life continues to improve and i can feel that trajectory. Mainly…I am certain that I have never been in the moment I am in – which is such an incredible leap from where I was before…that I live in tremendous gratitude for what it took for me to get to this new place.
And so it is today. I have taken gigantic leaps in my life….since last year…and looking through this thread…in the past several years. I can’t imagine the steps…huge leaps in terms of quality of life, happiness scale, relationship dynamics, contentedness with myself and many aspects of life and living.
I know that I stand in a place unimaginable to me a year ago…unfathomable 5 years ago. How good can life get?
So happy. So very very happy.
I love life.
I love my life.
I love where I am and I am so grateful for 43 Things for allowing me to document…over time…the hopes, the goals and the moment I am in…that enables me to see where I have been. How far I have come. How fast. How wonderful.
am i meaningful to them? to him?
i am trying to be.
what is it to be meaningful?
is it listening to their stories? enjoying a conversation and just passing the time?
not sure what to do…other than love them. love them all. be there for them. find out who they are and how i connect with them.
not sure if the boyfriend – who this all centers on – finds what I feel – i think he does…the amount of time and meaning we bring to each other.
he brings meaning to me.
i feel meaningful. because of him. his family. all 5 generations. what a setting for a life and living. i feel embraced. loved. i wanted to bring meaning and he, and they brought it to me.
called the landlord….told him i am ready to buy…
he now doesn’t want to sell.
mmmm… now what? did he just decide for me?
I just got a huge contract. Paper is signed. Check is in! Life is good. Now…celebrate!
Thursday with my honey and others… this weekend.
I love the way life is.
I will also celebrate by getting a coach.
Mondays: Organize the week, do check writing, desk day, project manage
Tuesdays: Laundry, real estate focus, agenda
Wednesdays: Host meetings, out of office day for meetings
Thursdays: Review what must be done for week and deadlines upcoming
Friday: Calls and standing meetings
Budget and stick to it.
On top of the key parts coming together, something else has: happiness. Huge amounts that brim over within me. I am so happy. It is as if I couldn’t appreciate anymore what has happened for me in my life. It is the small things, too. I had the most incredibly happy day with my daughter and her friend in getting her to school and getting the two of them set up.
That was following an incredibly happy morning with my boyfriend where we just really connected with each other – spiritual kind of way. Which was followed by a week where the work kicked-off and is coming together nicely. Where I found the right people to contract with. It is all good.
It just points to one thing – I am really, really happy. I am so enjoying life, people and events. The rest of the world has so much anger and acrimony. I couldn’t be happier.
I went with him to a doctor’s appointment today and then we went to town for him to get an official document. Came back to my place where we had a put together lunch. We went to my room where he changed to go back to work, but we took time to have an incredibly real conversation about work, finances and how we can partner those efforts. How our finances would work in partnership – as a single household. How our incomes together could provide opportunity to build wealth – knowing that being two singles has been harder to do so in our adult lifetimes. We spoke about partnership. What a good one could look like. Being a strong support system for each other. I felt so close to him. I offered my feelings and put my thoughts out there with regard to what I see and how I feel about these matters. It felt good. I earn more than he does, but he doesn’t have to take his job home – as I live with mine all the time. We talked about the advantages and disadvantages of this. I envy his ability to leave it alone and have a personal life. A life I struggle to build because of my work. So together I think we have a perfect union.
i will commit to this thought at least once each day – and reach out for something I want or need to do.
Ideally, it is my time for a break, but if I have been taking too much of a break, it will be time for me to get moving!