Just when I am about to step in it again, my weekly reminder would hit and there my answer would be. Maybe I should make this a daily reminder!!!
I enable narcissists all the time!!! I have changed the pattern this year – but only because of the reminders.
Moreover, I am in a relationship with one!!! Yikes! What was I thinking? I realized it the last fight we had. He is never going to see the real me. He is seeing me through his narcissist view of the world. NVOTW. :)
It is all about you – baby.
All about you!!
I am learning. How to see things. Open your eyes!!!
You are not blind. Just very dumb on what normal looks like. Your normal is not normal. It was a very sick normal that you fight everyday to find your way…and teach yourself to find your new normal. In the meantime, he is unhappy because you aren’t doting on him – all the time!
Open your eyes. I thought I was blind. Open your eyes. I know I was blind.
I’m buying my house. I have been renting. Now I am buying it. It will truly be my home.
3 acres with 2 very run down properties…
a pool, hot tub, etc… it is like a mini-spa if only it were fixed up.
very run down. 1950’s and not a dime of investment since.
but it calls me. it lives in me now.
way too much, but negotiable.
half of that would keep me in pain.
but for three months.
ultimately, i need twelve months in case something comes up.
we’ll see. not happy on the options.
think differently. ok? maybe it will be a wonderful break.
Not in the way I had hoped, but a different trail.
Life is definitely different. The trail is changing.
Perhaps being pushed out of my trail now.
Could be a really good thing.
I know it must be increasing because the credit card offers are getting very good.
I had a setback but I am back on track. Not sure how good I can get it, but I think I can get it close.
I must stay working my plan and pay off some of the debt I have picked up in order to get credit.
Always in gratitude – as the world embraces what I offer.
I am very happy. Life is as good as it gets. And then it gets better.
How can this get any better?
I can think of a couple of ways…but other than that…happy.
Unfortunately, I will only have her for a little more than 24 hours as I must leave for a trip. Even with that constraint, I am happy to have her with me. Joyful to have her in the house again. When I saw the glow from her bedroom lamp last night, I felt warmed to know she was once again with me.
I am so happy I have her in my life. Struggling to keep it happy and not saddened by the short time together. Trying to cram it all in in 24 hours.
Starting nov 1 – i am starting with one of the new ones…can go away from this one….
big success! not to be celebrated until contract in…. but great start!
yes!!!!! walk before you run…
she was cold in her house and couldn’t figure out how to turn on the little heater in the family room
so easy to help.
cooked her dinner, too.
not that she ate it.
I am trailblazing new paths in some areas of my life and not at all in others.
In the new areas of blazing, the new rabbit trail is a successful one
I am getting used to being successful and accepting the fact that I can be continuously successful.
what i had hoped to do wAS TO change the more monotonous aspects of my life. maybe these leaps – the successful path – is the way to create the new rabbit trail. maybe a need a big leap to get to change the smaller parts of the trail i had been hoping for.
is this about laundry?
what is the balance point?
What is next?
The hallway and the dressing room.
Then, a redo sweep to really get to the decluttering needed to make this place really work.
Going to look for new office furnishing.
make me smile in the living room, too.
Wall hangings all working.
finally hanging things up on the wall.
I can’t believe it is all working together.
Still have help coming in between.
It is the first time in twenty years I no longer have my daughter by my side each day. It has only been a week… ok 6 days. Not sure how I express to her at this distance how much she means to me.
I love her so much. Miss her unbelievably.
Really happy she is growing up. Really happy that she is moving on in her dream.
I must figure out how to tell her how much she means to me from this distance!
I can help.
I can help many people because my client helps many people. As their advocate. In creating a new way of operating for them, I can change the world – for them – and for millions by succeeding. It is the challenge of a lifetime. I am up for it. I am ready.
I have prepared my whole life for this.
I will change the world – with my client’s grace and support. Enabling me to bring what I can to the needs of so many.
Exciting time. It is working.
The ones that live in your head. The ones you are afraid to put into writing because you are afraid to say them out loud. The ones that live deep in your heart and you are afraid to voice.
Those ones. They are coming true.
The ones I have been holding in my heart for a lifetime. My wildest dreams…only further. The big bucket list group.
What brought them to come true? The paradigm shift. Once it shifted it just kept going. Success brings success. It feeds on it. The star rises. It keeps rising. How long to launch? Keep going, it says. You can have it all.
Life gets as good as it gets. and then it gets better.
the law of attraction.
want to go to china for business and get paid for my work, present US information at a large conference: check
want to scale a start-up: check
want them to give you an equity stake: check
want them to give you whatever budget you need: check
want to have a large multi-national hire you to help them in the same way: check
want to find a dream team to develop properties together: check
it just keeps coming.
These are ones that lived in my head.
They are alive.
I am living my wildest dreams.
Imagine what lives in the deep recesses of your mind – that you were afraid to give voice to – because you weren’t sure you could ever have it – and it would be laughable a decade earlier. But here you are: it is a decade later – and you are living those young dreams – you had built a path – right to the outcomes you were afraid to voice.
And then, it all becomes real.
You are living your wildest dreams.
The secret is alive
Live the secret.
this has been an incredible year. what a drive through this year. what a journey it has been.
from the spring break trip, to the college visits, her graduation ceremony and party(s), the eastern overseas trip, the southern trip, the harry trip, the crammed shopping for the dorm room and more and the beautification of the dorm room – it all just worked! It had to have been a sprint for her. She I am sure cannot catch her breath. I know I barely have and I haven’t been running and flying like she has.
I am very much looking forward to Christmas break – even if it looks like that means removing the wisdom teeth!!
I just want to hang and “be”. I just want to relax and be happy that we had the most outstanding year, in what was, no doubt, the most challenging, action-packed year. That was hers. Mine was on top of this. And is was great.
To finish the overall effect of the room… As I was looking at sofa tables to put the TV on, bookcases, too, I saw these fireplaces – electric ones!
What a great remedy for the room. This room is awful in the winter. It is surrounded by air on all sides but one so it is difficult to keep warm. The wall of windows, high ceiling and surrounded by air conspire to make it a very cold, freezing room.
But this was the answer. The Fireplace console was brought in, set up and I am now ready for the full B&B effect on some fall evening or snowy night.
I am very happy with the overall feeling of the room. I even have the BF helping me to make the bed each morning! This morning, as I laid there, he said, “aren’t you getting up so that we can make the bed?” This from a guy who one month ago thought this was a silly concept. But, my goal is to live in a B&B and they make the beds!
Hanging up my beautiful chinese silk print this weekend above the fireplace and then going to find the right drapes to keep the city lights out.
I am very happy. I have made my bedroom a wonderful place. It was worth it.