Bel67

I can’t, but I want to. He’s done with me but I can’t let him go, I keep making things worse by trying to keep him. We’d both be happier apart but he’s just been too special and too good to me. The thought of my life without him is too much to bear, I want to die just thinking of it. I don’t know how to cope, I’ve got no one to turn to. I don’t know how to live without him. I’ve lost him and gotten him back dozens of times but I just don’t think he’ll come back this time. I’ve made too many mistakes, I’ve hurt him to much and I’ll never forgive myself.