Mary

Apparently, the husband lied about just how excited he was about moving to Thailand. And as much as I would still like to move there, I would not do so knowing he would not be happy with it.

And I cut my cigarette intake from about 15 cigarettes a day down to two (on average). Im thinking if I can get my husband to quit, they wouldnt be there to tempt me. I was bad one day this week (was at the casino, so had about 8 cigs that day) but overall, its been a good week.

I am surprised I’ve made it quite well with the drastic cut, so fast. Im thinking, one a day this week, and see if by next week, I can cut it completely. Yay me..

Something was always coming up preventing me from doing or going what and where I wanted to. My responsibilities to my family, to my jobs, to my friends, to my siblings, and now to my husband.
Couldnt finish school because dad was ill, moved to San Francisco, but couldnt stay long because mom came ill, didnt go through with plans for returning to school cause my sister begged me not to leave her…

So here I am, no degree, no money or motivation to finish the degree, and no idea what I want to do with my life… or if I do, someone always says, I can’t do it. People ask me when I tell them I am unemployed- well, what do you want to do? Well, shoot, if I knew, would I be unemployed? would I be asking myself that day in and day out? Sheesh..

I need a change.. someone help!