I haven’t written in a long time because I was diagnosed with cancer and have been really sick for a while. Monday I weighed in at 237 and I haven’t even started chemo yet. I was really sick for a while because I couldn’t eat for nearly 3 weeks in October. Funny thing is I am eating pretty much whatever I want to now and I am still losing a little bit each week. They feel confident they removed all the cancer with surgery but I will have a couple of preventative rounds of chemo after the 1st of the year. 54 pounds off…96 to go…
Nov 12, 02:01PM PST | 3 cheers | 0 comments
I will never forget the first time I saw Mel Gibson in “The Patriot.”
He said “there were times I had trouble breathing around your mother.”
That struck me so forcibly. The character he played was so strong, so capable, so fearless. The dichotomy of a man and all that a man represents to be so weakened by “the weaker sex,” fascinates me and frankly makes me feel a bit more powerful if I ever had this power. I hope for one special man out there, that I can be that person. The person he can let down his defenses with. Makes me think of one of my favorite songs; my love, take my breath away.
Aug 31, 11:46PM PDT | 0 comments
I am sure I am no different than many other people in that we have goals about how we want to appear to others. But I find it is through my quirks and little things that make me who I am that I am able to stand out in a crowd. I am tired for buying society’s myth that I am only worthwhile if I look a certain way, act a certain way, etc. I think that everyone should try to look their personal best and have fitness and health goals and such but I am no longer going to make that my permission for being. I am always quick to let people know that I am working on my weight as kind of a disclaimer…or that yeah I am 29 and living with my parents…but I am gonna move out soon! it is like I am saying please don’t judge what you see…I won’t always be like this…
Well the truth is we are all works in progress…I will no longer apologize for being less than perfect….to try and explain away all my faults and foibles. There is more to me than just my weaknesses and past. He is still working on me to make me what I ought to be…just the way (if you will let him) he is working on you. Let’s all try to see the good in people today…yeah whatever…just call me pollyanna
I take it as a compliment.
Aug 31, 09:41PM PDT | 0 comments
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