BettieBooh

I’m actually goint to the psychiatrist tomorrow, to get this thing with my diagnosis started, and Im probably gonna talk to her about my panic. For me this is a big step, since last time I went there I didnt even talk. I havent been nervous until today. Hope it’ll leads to me getting my AS diagnose soon.

Ok, so I finally finished the suspender/apron dress Ive been maing since this spring. Oroginally it was meant to be just a skirt, but I found a 40’s pattern online and decided to make it instead, all I had to do was make the suspenders and now its finished. Im not sure if I like it, but I guess its because the fabric, its cotton, but was originally bed sheets, sp its a bit thin and flowy. Im satisfied tho, and if I manage to get my hands on either a petticoat or some tulle it would look even better since its a full skirt.

Im wearing it tomorrow, sincce its the first thing Ive made that doesnt look like crap. So im well on my way to making this goal.

ok, so Im sitting here all dr4essed to go out, I have to mail some packages which I should have done like two weeks ago, and also do some grocery shopping, but I cant get myself to walk out the door. Instead I get panicky and starts to change my clothes or shoes and suddenly its an hour later. I usually need to set a time, today its 4 pm, in an hour. By this time I should already have left. But since I know its an hour left to 4, Im doing this instead.

Gaaa, its not that difficult to go outside, right. Im doing it now. Im finished, all I have to do is put on my jacket and leave.. Gosh. Something is seriously wrong ere.

Wish me luck.