Black_Onyx

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I'm doing 29 things
 

Black_Onyx's Life List

  1. 1. be happy
    personal challenge . 2 entries . 9 cheers
    25,012 people
  2. 2. Finish a tube of chapstick before losing it
    1 entry . 5 cheers
    145 people
  3. 3. stop biting my nails
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    7,266 people
  4. 4. stop swearing
    1 entry
    911 people
  5. 5. control my temper
    2 entries . 4 cheers
    647 people
  6. 6. Be successful in Immortal Night
    1 entry
    1 person
  7. 7. achieve all my goals in 2011
    1 entry
    2 people
  8. 8. Heal
    2 entries . 3 cheers
    228 people
  9. 9. spend more time with my kid
    1 entry . 6 cheers
    13 people
  10. 10. Donate blood
    1 entry . 2 cheers
    2,857 people
  11. 11. To live instead of exist
    1 entry . 2 cheers
    11,498 people
  12. 12. get married
    1 cheer
    21,353 people
  13. 13. learn to live w/o the pain of the past or fear of the future
    5 cheers
    2 people
  14. 14. stop popping my knuckles
    1 entry . 3 cheers
    82 people
  15. 15. continue to work out everyday
    1 entry . 2 cheers
    1 person
  16. 16. resolve issues with my ex's
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    1 person
  17. 17. Beat my depression
    1 entry . 5 cheers
    1,956 people
  18. 18. finish writing my book
    1 entry
    523 people
  19. 19. let people in
    1 entry . 3 cheers
    48 people
  20. 20. discard my abandonment issues
    1 entry . 3 cheers
    13 people
  21. 21. Stop hurting myself
    1 entry . 3 cheers
    121 people
  22. 22. change the world
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    3,466 people
  23. 23. be worth something
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    7 people
  24. 24. not feel empty
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    6 people
  25. 25. quit drinking
    1 entry . 2 cheers
    1,026 people
  26. 26. Quit Smoking
    1 entry . 2 cheers
    9,314 people
  27. 27. stop being jealous
    1 entry . 2 cheers
    704 people
  28. 28. lie under the night sky and watch for shooting stars
    1 entry . 3 cheers
    30 people
  29. 29. live life to the fullest
    1 entry . 2 cheers
    1,577 people

How I did it
How to forgive myself
It took me
2 years
It made me
Relieved


How to get out of this group home
It took me
6 weeks
It made me
Eh


How to confess love to someone
It took me
2 months
It made me
Estatic


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Recent entries
Have a completely different life by this time next year
Well..

This wasn’t worth it. Remember what they say about how you don’t miss something till it’s gone? Yeah, well, this life is worse than the one I had.



Go to bed at a consistent, reasonable time (read all 2 entries…)
Untitled

Ya know what? Fuck it. I’m not a schedule person, I don’t want a scheduled everyday boring life. I’m gunna be unique and go to bed whenever the hell I want to.



Heal (read all 2 entries…)
Something I Will Never Heal From

I’m not one to whine about my problems, I’m not one to think I can live life completely pain free. But I never once thought I could ever feel this way. She broke me, she broke who I am. I will never be the same again, I will never not feel this horrible pain inside. I feel like she broke the gate on my heart, she broke it and no one can come inside it.. and since she was in there when it broke.. she wont escape it.
I know that I will never heal from this, and don’t you dare comment saying I will, cuz i know who i am, and this is something i will never come back from. But hey, if i happen to defeat the impossible and get over this, at least i can put this in the win collumn.
I really don’t know how I can continuing living like this.. sooner or later.. i will have to end everything..



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