BlueQuartzAssassin

I’ve always loved the idea of being able to dance Ballet, and one of my goals for the next few years will be to dance en pointe.
My feet & ankles have always been my stronger areas, but so far, I have had several health complications that kept me from even starting a class…but this year looks promising. I hope I’m not too old to catch up(I’m 18).
Lucky for me, I have been doing intensive martial arts training since I was little, (until the complications) so strength, exercise, & hard work is nothing new to me. I probably only need the technique, but I’ll be starting at the beginning, just to be certain ;)

My existence seemed rather useless. Other than being selfish, breathing up the oxygen that other people need, and living for the sake of not dying (since my mom would be devastated if I did), I’ve done nearly nothing for the world.
Sure, I’ve given advice, stopped some bullies, and tried to cast a few good spells, but I still don’t find that worthy of life.
If I could save someone who really deserves to live, then maybe I can make up for all the space I’ve been taking up on this small Earth…and perhaps even make up for suicide (if it happens in the future, and no, I’m not doing this to save my butt from Hell, I really couldn’t care less).
When I was little, & my mother was dying from abuse, I imagined a white light around her, and she claimed that she felt me there, & that I saved her…miraculously, she is alive to this day. But I really do think it was not entirely my doing. So yes, I’ll say that I accomplished this, but in a sense, I don’t think it counts yet, although I am very grateful.
So this is still my goal, and hopefully, I will accomplish it, many times over :) ...although, it would be even better if people didn’t need saving in the first place!

I’m not all human, which means I’m some sort of Other kin, and would like to discover what my true form is… whether it be beast, or some sort of plant. If anyone knows anything about this, feel free to say something. I’m open to all suggestions.
Right now I look human, but would like to find a form that represents me as a whole ^ ^ I would also like to be able to change back into my “human” form, without any “side effects” from shape shifting (which runs in my blood, so it should be attainable).
I suppose, for the sake of everyone really, I’ll have to be more specific.
I am in no way depressed, or unhappy with the way I am now, nor do I seek another form as a means to “escape.”
I am not indicating that I have any problem with being part human,
am in denial of being human (because I just said that I am part human, duh), nor am I going to make a blog just to lie to everyone.
Seriously, this takes effort…do you really think I would write this if my every intention wasn’t truthful, or backed up by science?
I am talking about not only shape shifting, but also about p-shifting, & Telekinesis also ties into my abilities that have stimulated my research…all of which have also not been disproved.