Is to not see this goal as something I’ve given up on… can’t deal with that either. In fact, it makes me cry. Four weeks.
Linnea's Life List
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1. finish our training brochure for 2010
4 entries . 4 cheers1 person -
2. stop chewing the inside of my mouth
9 entries . 18 cheers324 people -
3. put those remaining weeks of 2009 to good use
2 entries . 5 cheers1 person -
4. come up with exam topics for American Studies and Sociology
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5. finish my degree
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6. do my best to support my boyfriend in the final phase of his doctoral work
6 entries . 6 cheers1 person -
7. eat not more than 1200 calories per day until Nikolaus (good reasons: that special gift from last Christmas, Stabi, general fitness)
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8. daily use my online diet coach, combined with an offline food journal
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9. lose weight
15 entries . 1 cheer36,389 people -
10. do some form of exercise every day until Nikolaus (and yes, I will stubbornly include biking to work)
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11. follow the six-week fat burning program (22 units of running and cycling)
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12. exercise at the gym three times a week
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13. have better posture
2 entries . 6 cheers7,730 people -
14. find and eliminate the source of this chest + back pain
1 entry . 1 cheer1 person -
15. get at least eight hours of sleep each night (preferably from 11-7)
19 entries . 18 cheers1 person -
16. stop procrastinating
8 entries . 18 cheers26,996 people -
17. enjoy internet use for an hour on weeknights (Saturdays included) and max three hours on Sundays
3 entries . 10 cheers1 person -
18. start our own private film club
1 entry . 2 cheers1 person -
19. Have a new Fun Scavenger Hunt every month
1 entry . 5 cheers13 people -
20. be good at my job and find meaning in it without sacrificing my personal goals, integrity, health and happiness
27 entries . 16 cheers1 person -
21. learn the art of tasteful self-promotion
2 entries . 13 cheers3 people -
22. not read while eating
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23. take better care of my eyes, get a new pair of glasses, and not wear my contact lenses for too many hours
7 entries . 5 cheers1 person -
24. Quit Smoking
36 entries . 44 cheers8,509 people -
25. give myself monthly breast exams
1 entry . 2 cheers6 people -
26. beat my thyroid disease
4 entries . 13 cheers22 people -
27. let my hair grow and not mess with it until December 15
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28. cook and bake more often, try a new recipe each week, invite friends over for dinner or cooking parties twice a month
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29. Do the apartment therapy 8-week home cure
9 entries . 4 cheers21 people -
30. post random questions daily and see if anyone plays with me and answers them :)
1 cheer330 people -
31. lernen zu schweigen
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32. learn how to "fight fair"
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33. stop interrupting people
1 entry . 2 cheers81 people -
34. not take things so personally
3 entries . 8 cheers175 people -
35. have a better relationship with my mother and make the appropriate goal, once I've found the right words...
7 entries . 2 cheers1 person -
36. see the HSV be the German soccer champion
1 cheer2 people -
37. Take a road trip across the USA
4 entries . 7 cheers281 people -
38. Make new friends
11 entries . 6 cheers12,790 people -
40. get married
4 entries18,624 people -
41. have children someday soonish
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42. Weekly list 10 things that made me happy, proud, or grateful, or that generally made life worth living
79 entries . 17 cheers4 people -
43. Be granted the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and to have the wisdom to know the difference...
14 cheers477 people
want to turn everything in my life into a problem that has to find its way onto this list, but I’M SO FED UP with my hair right now. I chopped off a few centimeters (dry ends) and now I’m mad at myself (at my thyroid gland, and winter, and radiators).
The date is just random. I need a little time to learn to love my hair again. And if not, dang, time to get a professional haircut. And – I’ll write no more, lest I rant I even more – perhaps start to dye, too. Terrifying concept. I could do something crazy and decide to go back to blonde. We’ll see.
I think it’ll be a time for a new goal soon. Sometime in the new year. I’m doing all I can here, but the limitations of this position become ever clearer, and I need to start looking for something else in spring or summer. Not hunt, but start to look at what’s on offer and what’s demanded from applicants.
When T. showed me a job offer last night (marketing trainee, 2 yrs.), I fended it off (don’t have what it takes, don’t have degree), then felt bad about doing so and told him to keep ‘em coming. (And felt thankful for therapy.) I know that I can only gain from stepping out there, into the real world, away from this, but find it infinitely scary.
At work, too, there’ve been many moments in the past weeks when I noticed how my attitude has changed, and how it needs to change even more. So much to learn.
