What has happened that this topic comes up all the time? Coming home from dinner (triple-dating with a gay couple and two people four years younger than us) last night, I wished for a gust of wind to blow away these questions and comments others plague and label me with, questions that, to be honest, I have also asked on occasion. It’s natural for me to enjoy discussions about family life, life goals, career issues. But can we please not talk about this the whole time, especially when we’re not getting anywhere nearer?
For the record, we learned last night T.’s colleague L. is pregnant. What seems like a dozen of their students have had childen in the past year (by accident), and other colleagues have as well. And friends back from Hamburg. Plus the cousin who’s on welfare, I believe, and who will have her 3rd child soon. B.’s two close friends from work are pregnant, which thankfully she is taking well enough. The only good development in my own life is that I’m now permanently employed. Regardless of our own situation, I look forward to meeting all these babies! And I ask myself if their presence will alter something in our partnership.
Nov 08, 06:49AM PST | 0 comments
I got my employment contract yesterday. Well, that only took five and a half weeks. And as life goes, it was one of those days that show me that I’m a foreigner here. Anyway – it’s there, it’s for real, it’s a piece of paper that somewhere mentions the words “until the age of 67” (uh-oh – that’s both funny and scary).
Nov 07, 08:37AM PST | 1 cheer | 0 comments
Eliminate – do I sound like W. on September 12?
This pain in my chest is so severe, it radiates to my back. My upper back and shoulders hurt long after the pain in my chest has stopped. The phenomenon of heartburn-related back pain exists, but is what I have even heartburn? Related to overconsumption of coffee? What about my bad posture? I pushed these questions aside for a few months and smack, today was a bad day. Barely made it home. I need to
- make an appointment with orthopedist
- improve my posture
- ask my doctor for more of those pills
- get back on the less-coffee-wagon
Come to think of it, I’ve also felt under stress during the past days. Perhaps it was a mistake to think that happy moments can counterbalance those stressful ones.
Putting this goal up here in order to signal to myself, this is serious.
Nov 05, 02:34PM PST | 0 comments
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