Blue_fish

I can see how 43things can be motivating. Getting a cheer on this goal really jazzed me – sort of like someone is paying attention to the fact that I said I want to do this, so now I should really do it.

Unfortunately I got the cheer while bedridden with a migraine, doing my best to avoid bright light or loud sounds.

I’m on the road to a pain free brain, and will probably be able to pick up the sax (well, pick it up and make noise – hopefully music even) without pain in a day or two. I just hope the burst of energy about this goal last long enough for me to be able to use it.

Get over fear of public speaking
...untill I’m doing a reading at a friends wedding.

I’m not exactly phobic, but I tend to talk really fast and stutter when I get nervous in front of people. I’m pretty sure being on a beach with no amplification in front of sixty people isn’t going to make this any better.

So now I’ve got to practice my reading. Over and over. So I’ll at least be at ease with the reading.

Why did I wait until I only had 62 hours? Well, I wasn’t asked until last week (the bride and groom had “ask our friends to do readings” on their list of things to do, but this task just hadn’t made it to the top of the ‘to do’ pile until then). And, out of my fear of public speaking I’d put off practicing for a couple of days. And then, probably due to stress, I got a ‘feels like someone is poking my brain with a stick’ migraine that had me hiding from light and noise in my bed for a couple of days.

I read the passage aloud several times tonight. Feeling a little better about it all. Tomorrow I’ve got a friend who is willing to be my audience.

I got both an email and a phone call from the pilates instructor, which I think should count as forward motion on the goal.

Of course when I got home and called her back she was out, so I still haven’t made direct contact. But it’s so close to happening. Can you feel the excitement?

Still haven’t gotten close to doing one crunch, but (insert justification for “feel pretty positive about it all” here.) How pathetic is it that I can’t actually think of a good justification? Oh well, I still feel positive.

Happy is good.

Must remember the feeling when I finally do start lessons and my mid-section is all sore and I’m feeling pathetic – I’m looking forward to lessons. Once actually doing lessons and trying to think of a justification for quiting lessons because I’m basically a lazy person who doesn’t enjoy working out – must try and reconnect with the happy woman I am today, who is eager to start lessons.