Bobblelover

is looking for help to be thin



I'm doing 36 things
 

Bobblelover's Life List

  1. 1. go to bed early
    177 people
  2. 2. Keep on top of uni work
    1 person
  3. 3. take my vitamins everyday
    52 people
  4. 4. Engineer conscious fidgeting into my day effortlessly
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    1 person
  5. 5. Be able to complete a full run with Andrew
    2 entries . 1 cheer
    1 person
  6. 6. Get my own place (rented)
    1 entry . 2 cheers
    1 person
  7. 7. Feel like I am not controlled by food
    8 entries . 4 cheers
    1 person
  8. 8. Weigh 11 stone
    6 people
  9. 9. Weigh 10 1/2 stone
    1 person
  10. 10. Weigh 9 1/2 Stone
    6 people
  11. 11. Weigh 9 stone
    19 people
  12. 12. Clear my overdraft - again
    1 entry
    1 person
  13. 13. Clear my car debt
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    1 person
  14. 14. Exercise at least 10 minutes a day
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    2 people
  15. 15. Hear those 3 words and believe them
    2 cheers
    1 person
  16. 16. Visit Auschwitz
    106 people
  17. 17. Shower everyday
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    12 people
  18. 18. Build my tortoise a run
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    1 person
  19. 19. Dye my old clothes so I'll want to wear them again
    1 person
  20. 20. Improve my vocabulary so I can express myself adequately
    2 cheers
    1 person
  21. 21. Never feel like I've wasted a day
    1 entry . 2 cheers
    1 person
  22. 22. Become a registered psychologist
    8 people
  23. 23. Repay my student loans
    5 people
  24. 24. Let go of the need to self harm when I'm sad
    1 entry . 1 cheer
    1 person
  25. 25. Ride a horse
    735 people
  26. 26. Assemble my family tree
    1 person
  27. 27. be a size 10 again!!!
    17 people
  28. 28. Get my quote tattoo
    1 entry
    1 person
  29. 29. Get married
    18,579 people
  30. 30. Be a mum
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    27 people
  31. 31. find out what my blood type is
    1,317 people
  32. 32. Find a balance between the things I want to do and the things I need to do
    2,369 people
  33. 33. Read all the books in my possession
    1 person
  34. 34. See the pyramids in Egypt
    240 people
  35. 35. Travel America
    42 people
  36. 36. Write to a Death row prisoner
    1 person

How I did it
How to look in the mirror and think I'm pretty
It took me
1 day
It made me
Happy


How to update and rename my 40 things to goals measuably achievable instead of nonspecific or general wants
It took me
1 day
It made me
focused


How to say sorry
It took me
6 months
It made me
Lighter


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Recent entries
Feel like I am not controlled by food (read all 8 entries…)
Vending machines 3 weeks ago

When I am at home I’ve stopped eating constantly; I’m far too busy to not have something else to do. Uni work as a distraction, surely, you say, you should be doing other things to avoid doing those 3 essays? Well yes, two weeks ago you would have been right, but something has clicked inside my head and I have realised that procrastination only makes the situation harder on yourself.

I digress.. So home is sorted, food wise. My next obstacle is work. And more specifically, vending machines. They’re like a game: figuring out which number is for what product, keying it in (whilst holding your lunch card into the slot) then anticipating the fall, only for the my chocolate’s stuck! drama to unfold where you then have to get someone with the key, or a big lad to shake the machine until your chosen piece of confectionary falls into the bottom, and you can return to your table clutching your prize. Brilliant!

Or on a rare occasion, you choose your treat, locate the correct number, it falls and you uneventfully return to your table, clutching your prize. Well thats even better.

The people you go for lunch with are the kind of people who never have to worry about their weight (or should and don’t!) so when they queue up for get their sweetness it’s oh so easy to join the line, rather than sit there with your [insert healthy food here]. Even when you resist the initial temptation, conversation and smiles relax you enough for your mind to drop its guard and for naughty thoughts to creep in..

“If you have that Milky Way now then you could just be good for the rest of the evening”

“I know that packet of crisps is only 183 calories, and that’s nothing, so go ahead!”

NO, I shall not. Not anymore! I will not load my card with money, I will bring food to eat, and eat only that! Yes I shall!



Let go of the need to self harm when I'm sad
I want to be able to feel sad.. 5 months ago

I want to be able to feel sad without feeling the need to cut.
I want to be able to feel sad but still get on with my life.
I want to be able to feel sad but not take it out on others.
I want to be able to feel sad and for people to realise why.
I want to be able to feel sad and have people realise without me telling them
I want to be able to feel sad but then feel good again.
I want to be able to feel sad and not feel bad for feeling sad.
I want to be able to feel sad and not dwell on the bad feelings.
I want to be able to feel sad talk to someone about it without them getting mad.

But really, all I want is not to feel sad at all..



Reach 43 things I want to do
Now I can go to bed 5 months ago

Its not about finding things for the sake it them. I knew there were more things I wanted to do, I just didn’t know them yet!



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