I'm doing 30 things
I get told a lot that no one ever knows what I am thinking. I usually hold my cards real close to my chest and make everyone guess what is going on with me. Well over the last year I have found, and lost (due to my lack of sharing feelings), someone I am enamored with. Last week I called him and explained to him exactly how I feel: That I see forever when I look at him, hear music when he enters a room so loudly that it causes me to think I’m going crazy, and all those other emotions one swears only exists in trashy romance novels. He is the only person I have ever met who honestly makes me weak in the knees just by looking at me. Because of what he is he is a vital part of my happiness and if he doesn’t return my affection I will have to settle living as just his friend because I can’t stand to not have him in my life.
Bourg1a's Life List
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1. understand men
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2. have great abs
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3. Learn Spanish
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4. actually practice Buddhism
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5. Send a postcard to Postsecret
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6. Tell the people who i love, "I love you" more often
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7. live passionately
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8. dance
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9. upgrade my wardrobe.
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10. give away the things that I don't need
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11. have better posture
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12. stop chewing the inside of my mouth
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13. learn to bartend
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14. be a contestant on "The Price is Right"
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15. learn how to graffiti
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16. get a new nickname that everyone calls me instead of my real name
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17. Live happily ever after
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18. Get a tattoo
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19. To live instead of exist
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20. Skydive
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21. stop sucking at life
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22. admit when i'm lying to myself
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23. Think less and do more
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24. Watch every Audrey Hepburn movie.
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25. identify 100 things that piss me off
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26. learn how to do a cartwheel
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27. have my handwriting analyzed
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28. stop worrying all the time
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29. Compile a 100 favorite songs list.
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30. Be Grateful for 5 things each day
9 people
Recent entries
While I had a destination, this weekend was an unplanned trip. In the middle of the night I packed a bag, didn’t tell anyone I was leaving and called my best friend to say I would be at his place in 3 hours. That was about as spontaneous as my life gets so that is enough for me.
Though I didn’t send one, I did tell someone my secret. It was a relief to let someone else in on something that has burdened me for so long
