BrittanyD

I am so sick of the way I look and the way I feel. I use to be so pretty and so skinny, but that all changed. I dont know what happened to me, but I was 122lb in a size 5 with a flatt, tight little tummy and I gained 23lb in a year. I thought maybe it was the birth controll because thats the only thing I could think of. My eating habbits and my active lifestyle didnt change. So I stoped taking them and now another year later I am 175lb and I miss feeling beautiful. I miss wearing clothes I like. I hate dreading to go clothes shoping. The probleams I see on the outside are now effecting me on the inside. I feel depressed, I feel unatractive, and I feel alone. I have become bitter… hating others because I hate myself. OH AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I HAVE STRECH MARKS!!!

I need to loose this weight! I need to feel like me again.

The second Semester really sucks. I missed 26 days of school my Sr. year, no joke. It truely is a waste of time. You have pretty much learned everything you are going to learn. BUT it is worth it when you walk down that stage to get that diploma. Your parents are happy and proud, very emotional. You start to think back when you were in Jr. High and you thought you would die before you made it. Its a joyous time. I do not recomend skipping 26 days, I had to searve a couple of Sat. schools for it, which for me worked out great to get my college english assignments done, but alot of schools have different rules and you might end up in truency court, and even be held back.

I recomend going to college, even if its a community college. If you have probleams paying for it, go to the financial aid office of your college and they will help set you up with a Pale Grant. My college hands them out like candy, I was like the only person I knew that actually paid for the semester out of there own pocket. I felt dumb, lol.

College is so much fun and when you are not there you miss it. good luck and have fun. This is the best time of your life.

I really want a baby, but in the baby making process I change my mind. I am scared I guess. My husband and I have been together for 3 years and we both agree that we want a baby, but I always back out at the last min. What the hell is wrong with me??? I am hoping to figure this out, get over my fears or whatever, and have my child in 2008.