So I went all day yesterday without eating and today all I’ve eaten is a small sub with a few chips. I want to binge sooo bad. I realize it is because I have restricted so much. But I’m sooo afraid to eat because I know that I will lose control. I can see it in my head. So basically I would rather restrict myself then let myself be free with food. I do not really trust myself. For me the only way things are better for me are when I eat… except for the fact that it actually makes me feel worse which in turn makes me eat more…Hmm not soo good. I use food as a way of avoidance. I don’t want to feel. I have used food as a way to deal with stress for far way too long. I tell myself to find other ways, but it is so hard. Food seems to work best…atleast for a little while… Oh whatever…I’m not eating tonight. Hopefully I will not lose control tomorrow : (
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I overate again today. I just get so stressed out sometimes. I went home for the weekend and that is when I seem to lose control with my eating. I guess I just cannot handle the pain and bad memories I experience when I’m around my family. I have a plan to not eat tomorrow. Is that wrong to not eat?? I just really feel that I’ve eaten so much the past few days that I don’t really deserve to eat tomorrow. And if I do eat tomorrow then I will most likely completely lose control and eat everything insight. Do yall have any advice???