Yes, I finally said what I felt and the outcome is that the other party cannot accept what I really think and feel. Ah..though it was nice to be assertive and be true to myself, I need to accept the fact that not everyone appreciates me being assertive. Some prefer pushovers..after all, they can then get their way. I promise myself that I will be wary of such people who don’t like me being assertive for I am tired of letting others step all over me. Yes, I may lose some friends ..but are they really my friends in the first place? Perhaps not.
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1. have more confidence in myself
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2. listen to my inner voice
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3. stop being a pushover
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4. be healthy
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5. be mindful
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6. learn how to prepare 10 excellent vegetarian meals
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7. be proud of myself
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8. have a flat tummy
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How I did it: Finally asked myself why am I wasting so much time on facebook and realised that while there were valid reasons for using facebook, there were also times when I was just bored and wasting time on facebook. It does serve the side of me that wants to socialise, be entertained, keep in touch with friends overseas, etc. Now, I would occupy my time productively with useful activities that are much more useful and address the same needs faceboo… Read how I did it…
How I did it: Being fast is always associated with productivity. Slow means lazy and is always associated with guilt. I guess that's just the way I am brought up. Mum would always scold when I am resting and slowing down. And soon, my mum's voice becomes internalised and I cannot slow down without feeling very guilty and thinking that I am "wasting time". It is only when I am burning out that I realised that my health and my happiness and my life will … Read how I did it…
How I did it: Understanding my time wasters and my needs that are satisfied by doing all those time wasters helped me to stay clear. I was so hooked to facebook, msn, youtube etc. Always thought that people might be responding to me and I need to reply asap. Yes, that's right. The need for instant response and of course instant gratification. But, when I started having worse skin, dark eye circles, weaker immunity and fatigue, it was really not worth i… Read how I did it…
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Am glad that I finally took time off even though it is to work from home. I needed a break from the office. Really burning out. Am glad that I listened to my inner voice to give myself a break. Guess if I had listened to my inner voice earlier, i would have noticed the signs of my burning out earlier. Really need to listen more. Guess, it is always the illness that makes me wake up and listen.
Last night, I was browsing through old photos and came across my mum’s old photos. I told her that I couldn’t understand why people say that we’re alike. Even my brother can’t see the similarity. Then she said that she thinks she is more beautiful when she was younger. I look more like my dad’s side and so more ugly. In the past, i would have felt sad. But, last night, I told her that I don’t think so, her cheeks were too chubby and besides, my cousin looked the best. Sometimes, I really think that parents who pride themselves too much for being beautiful can really hurt their children self-esteem as they feel ashamed that their children are “not as beautiful as them”.
Anyway, just glad that I no longer accept her remarks as facts :)
