COFFEESPAZ

The husband’s being a dick. That’s nothing unusual these days, but he’s not willing to go to counseling? So…this marriage basically means nothing to him. Contrary what he believes, it’s freaking NOT a matter of who talks the most that determines whose point is valid and whose point is stupid. Besides, we all know it’s HIS point – or, should I say, lack of even having a point – that’s stupid. No matter how endlessly he babbles on. But anyway, yeah, I’m pissed. And that’s my motivation. I never had any problem turning every freaking head where ever I went. Let me just drop some of these extra pounds, get myself looking lethal, then when he wants to work things out? Right. She who laughs last laughs best. Asshole.

Ok, so I’m not obese or anything, not even close. Maybe about 20 – 30 pounds over. Normally, this would mortify me, but lately…I just don’t seem to care. I don’t think it’s about negativity so much as it is acceptance. Does that make sense? Anyway, when I try to express this to the husband, I notice he really doesn’t have anything to say about it. The guy who has something to say about everything. I don’t think he gets it, how cool something as simple as acceptance of one’s self, just they way one is, really is. Nope. I think to him it’s more a matter of “OMMFG, she’s gonna let herself go now???” Ah, hardly. BUT…I guess it wouldn’t hurt to lose a little weight, if it’s gonna throw him into such a bloody panic. So, my goal here is motivation. I need to somehow get to where I care about this.

Ok, so here’s the plan – I want this business started by no later than March, 2010. What business? Yeah, right. Like I’m gonna put it here so some goober can rip off my idea.

Anyway, here are the items I’ll need to start, so I don’t forget:

Supplier (check)
15ml dropper bottles – 60 count
5/8” x 1” self adhesive labels – 60 count
Padded mailing envelopes – 60 count
Shipping labels – 60 count
Website
Business name
Hosting account
Separate PayPal account
Separate bank account

Yeah, I can do this. I’ve already started one successful business, so I know what I need to do. I can’t wait – just freaking wish I could start it right NOW!