CagedPromise

I wish I could say I did it once so I can do it again, but it isn’t that easy. I will never give up on this one though. I refuse to torture myself about it, but I will always strive for good health and to conquer my unhealthy addictions!

and it feels amazing!!!!! I spent what were supposed to be some of the most beautiful years of my life (my 30’s) as the invisible woman. Not either thin or obese enough to be noticed.

Well I’m back and I feel fantastic!! Don’t get me wrong, this isn’t about the superficial. It’s about being able to move again. About being able to walk up a flight of steps without having to stop at the top to catch my breath. About knowing I feel stronger every day. I love that strength! I always have. I love feeling muscles working under flesh; feeling in simpatico with my body. Knowing that if I need my body to respond at a moment’s notice it both can… and will.

I can dance again.

And I do. Oh, how I do!

I’ve created a journal for my journey. It’s listed under CagedPromise on LiveJoural.com if anyone cares to be grossed out ;) It’s private so far so anyone that did want to read it (although I can’t imagine why anyone would) would have to e-mail me here or there to ask for permission. I’m in no great hurry to put on display what a slovenly pig I am for all the world to see. Nope, not a maschocist. I have enough guilt and shame to start my own religion and don’t need more heaped into that already fetid pot. But I digress….

I’ve begun! YAY ME!

Please, Please, PRETTY PLEASE WITH A TECHNICOLOR NEON RED MARISCHINO F*CKING CHERRY ON TOP let this be the trip that takes!!!!!