CallaLady34

I drink a lot of pop, at least a couple of bottles per day. I crave it when I don’t have it and it’s making me fat. I would like to cut pop out of my diet altogether, but I’m so addicted that it may take a while. I think if I cut pop out completely and replaced it with water that I would be so much healthier and I might even lose some weight! I think I need to set a date to quit…hmmm…that’s a little scary, but I think I’m ready.

So I freaked out on him tonight, about an hour after making this goal. I get anxious in certain situations and he doesn’t quite understand. He’s so easy going that things don’t phase him. I know that I’m being irrational during these times, but it seems like a huge deal at the time. The fact that he can’t understand makes me angry and I lash out at him. This time was bad, I didn’t even want him to touch me. I feel bad for being mean to him, but I feel out of control and he just doesn’t understand. It’s so frustrating! In the future I will try to slow down and see what his intentions are and try to remember that he’s trying.

I’ve had a problem for a while now actually finishing books. I’ve got about 6 books laying around that I’ve started, but have failed to finish. My first book that I will finish will be “The Rum Diary” by Hunter Thompson. I need to set aside time to relax and read. I think that getting my apartment clean and a more enjoyable place to be will help me achieve this goal.