I believe that a day never goes by when I have no thought of any of my previous boyfriends. For some reason I am still emotionally attatched to boyfriends form 3 years ago! Despite having meaningful relationships inbetween, what is wrong with me!
Camlcg's Life List
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1. stop compulsive overeating
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2. Be mysterious
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3. Be mysterious and intrigueing (did i spell that right?)
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4. Reach the peak of physical fitness
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5. stop hating
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6. stop hating my body
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7. stop hating everyone
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8. have real friends
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9. be more patient with parents
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10. Quit blushing because of petty things
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11. Get the hell outta Surrey
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12. have a healthy, amazing, loving relationship
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13. let go of resentment
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14. Find out if the Hokey-Pokey really IS what it's all about
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15. be able to draw what is in my head
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16. be enlightened
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17. stop being so upset whenever people get over me
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18. sleep better
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19. be a better person
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20. Hitchhike
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21. pray more
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22. be happy
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23. work because I like to, not because I have to
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24. become better at small-talk
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25. talk to strangers
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26. drink more water
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27. be more confident
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28. stop biting my nails for good
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29. stop thinking about "him"
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30. spend more time doing things that matter
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31. stop buying unnecessary things
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32. stop pitying myself
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33. Decide what I believe in
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Sometimes I blush over totally pointless things too.. But I’ve got better recently! The trick is, just not thinking about it- forcing it out of your head, kind of like if you’re trying to go to sleep to stop thinking anything.. though it can make you look kinda spaced out.. I remember once when I was about 11 years old, I was in a pshe class (like health class) and we were having ‘discussion groups’ and some girl started talking about mastubation- I knew what it was, but I didn’t know the name for it.. and so had no idea about what this girl was talking about, but she asked me if I had ever mastubated or something similar, and I went bright red, despite having no idea hwat she was talking about! Of course that looked kinda bad.. I also used to blush whenever other people farted, so it always looked as though it was me.. and I dunno, if i start thinking things through sometimes, or think ‘there’s no reason for me to be embarrassed or blush about this’ i then blush uncontrollably! ARGH! My French teacher used to tease me about my boyfriend all the time and I would get so embarrassed i’d put my bright red head on my arms on my desk until i felt as if i had recovered- it isnt advisable.. i think if you just ignore your blushing other people will too.. luckily i dont take french anymore :)
