CaptainYippieDoodle

someones birthday, but I don’t remember whos birthday it was because I forgot. Happy Birthday to you, whomever you are.

I beg you not to be sentimental about your sentinel lymph node. There is so much more of you that is obvious to love. You can’t even see a lymph node nor does anyone consider your lymph or the nodes of the lymph system when one loves you. You must see the logic in this.

Had I not been a cad and general useless ball of slimy arm pit curadjula I would have made myself aware of your present situation. My Dearest Girly Pants in the curl, know that I have wishes for you to be most happy in any state you find your physical body in and despise any plague no matter the significance visited upon it.

As I have been entrusted by my Grandfather, the great Captain Skippydoodle and one time owner of a rare metrosexual sea marmot, to carry on as your captain I hereby banish this horrid malady visited upon you! I also command that you remember you are in the thoughts of many who have grown to hold you dear so that this knowledge is your buoy through rough seas and the sometimes-treacherous currents of life.

Sincerely,

Kevin

First, the scar thing.
Yes, I have to admit that soon after I understood that I was in the midst of a divorce I felt hollow inside like some great tree that had its heartwood cored by some enormous fire. Not much moved me to any strong emotions. Was that a scar or a wound? At any rate, it didn’t go away until one day I realized I could be infatuated with a woman and feel love again.

Marriage
I would never say I am looking to get married because I see no practical use in it. It’s that simple. It’s a legal document. My children will get what little I have when I pass and it will most likely be family memorabilia. Things from their grandparents all things of little value and even less emotional attachment to anyone who is not related. Even this inheritance issue is of little relevance to what I consider important anyway. It is what I consdiered most hurtful about the divorce; the degradence of emotions by money.

I am of the Roman Catholic faith, my ex-wife was Union Methodist when we got married. Religion seemed to play a more important role in her life than mine so I became Union Methodist. During our marriage, through a quirk of fate, she decided to become Roman Catholic. We were then married in the Roman Catholic Church. Now she is seeking an annulment of marriage and I can only imagine the claims that she has listed as to why the marriage should be annulled. It is sure to be yet another hurtful experience we both must endure. I can imagine how much money she paid to have the church consider it and the questions she had to answer.

You might see where I’m going with this, but I’ll express it anyway. I can’t see how getting married in a church could care much to God or the higher power of your choice since it has been cheapened so by us mortals. I suspect that treating a spouse as the Bible suggests is more important to God. How important is getting married in a church by any specific faith become? Little I would reply.

Practicality and Morality
A family is a very important thing and an enterprise to be taken seriously with ceremony and pomp. Family is so important to me that when I considered a vasectomy and the permanency of the procedure I concluded that my two children would always be mine in every conceivable way. Was I young enough to raise more? Uhm . . . NO.

Marriage was important to me for my children to see and experience. Divorce destroyed what I hoped marriage would show them. Now, what’s important to me is living my life the best I can to show them that failures, like a failed marriage, should not end or inhibit a persons life. Although getting married again could be part of that plan, it isn’t an import part or necessary because obviously they have seen the impermanency of it.

Romance
I need no stinking marriage badge to be romantic.

Commitment
For obvious reasons I could not claim that marriage is proof of commitment. When over 50% of all marriages end in divorce and when second, third marriages have an even worse track record how could anyone? If one considers marriage as a way to show commitment it does not provide it nor does it prevent infidelity or any form of non-commitment. I’m not sure what does nowadays except a persons word and virtue of deeds and a person can not know how good a person’s word is without experience.

I become suspicious when someone who has been through a divorce mentions that they want to be married before they fall in love. Love makes you do stupid things, it is what makes us human. Being in love might make me stupid enough to get married despite all of the above that I consider rational. I say might because I doubt that even love would make me marry again since it would not be to start new lives that I believe should be nurtured by a traditional family. Proclaiming the aspiration of marriage in this stage of my life would be absolutely insane by my way of reckoning.

Please note that I wrote, “consider rational” and not scared or frightened by divorce. I have given it thought. Thought that others might consider irrational, but thought that was not provoked by emotional scars. Yes, one could say I fear marriage, but I also fear walking across the street before I look both ways! I would not want to lead a woman on by letting her believe that I would consider marriage before I loved her or perhaps even after. I don’t walk around stomping on people’s ambitions. I know how important they are. In fact I consider ambitions, goals, aspirations to be the reasons for living.

Now that I have brought up aspirations no doubt your wondering what mine are concerning a love life. It is simply to be happy, to have someone to wrap my arms around when I need it, to be there when she needs it,to make love because I love and to have this last until I die.