Catastrophic

6.) I eloped when I got married.
7.) My children make me laugh every day.
8.) I am painfully shy.
9.) I have one tattoo.
10.) All of my pets are insane.

1.) I am a married mother of three teenagers.
2.) I have brunette hair and green eyes.
3.) I love to listen to other people.
4.) I love all kinds of music, even though I can’t sing or play an instrument myself.
5.) I love storms – the bigger, the better.

I have completed writing my first novel. I should be proud of that. It’s something many people dream about and never manage to accomplish. But instead of moving ahead at full throttle I have come to a complete standstill without ever even submitting it to a publisher or agent. I do not have writer’s block – the novel is done. I have also written a screenplay (which is being read by two production companies at the moment) and I have begun writing my second screenplay. It’s just that the novel was my first dream, my first attempt, and I don’t want to let go of it. I am not afraid of rejection. I expect it to be rejected. That is part of paying your dues as a writer. I am afraid of acceptance and afraid that it could be successful. It’s weird. Why be so scared about publishing my novel when selling a screenplay is nothing but a neat thing to celebrate? All the novel needs is the last minute polish and final proof-read. But every time I open my computer to start writing a query letter I freeze up. My screenwriting agent would love to read my novel and I won’t even let him see it. What the heck is wrong with me??