Chel

I’ve started to rebuild and re-evaluate my list. Since having Val, there is SO much I want to accomplish, and I figure this is a good way to start having a visible checklist of things to work through. A friend of my was doing this process called “Flash Focus” which was basically a running brain dump of to do lists and you just voided off what you completed and just kept adding to the bottom as you thought of something you needed to do. While I understand the process and it seemed kind of interesting to me, I think I would start to feel overwhelmed by the whole thing. It’s basically staring down your ever mounting to do list with no end in sight. I like breaking down my to dos into small lists where it actually feels like I’ve accomplished something if I tick something off.

I’m taking things off my list that either don’t appeal to me anymore, or seem so far out on the time line that I won’t be doing them in the next year or two.

Removing things from my list before always seemed like a failure, or an admission of defeat. Today I look at it as being reasonable and realistic.

Since the passing of Pat, I’ve spent a lot of time over the last year cleaning out, moving stuff, paring down, and weeding out. This of course is a never ending job. It seems that when you put three things to the curb, and by this I mean the metaphorical curb…not necessarily the trash, three other things come to take it’s place.

I’ve been weeding out my art “junk” boxes by letting my art friends have their picks.

I’ve been going through things I’ve acquired over the years and getting rid of things I no longer find useful.

I’ve been donating clothing, and getting rid of junk clothing.

It just seems this will never end. I’m just too much of a “collector”. Not of things of monetary value, but things of value in artful ways, or beautiful ways, or sentimental ways.

Dealing with Pat’s years of acquired “junque” has made me even more ruthless. There are still things I cannot part with or pare down no matter how much I try.

So I move this goal to the bottom of my list mainly for the reason that it will never be “Done” will never be “COMPLETE”

Started this goal already.