ChiLd_Of_ThE_vAyNe

I need someone to hold me. Someone to call my own. I miss my now ex boyfriend… we have been broken up since sunday. He was the best thing to ever happen to me and now hes gone. we broke up cuz we never get to see each other. I want to run away with him. we are still really good friends tho. But it sux because I can’t call him mine anymore. I am in love with him… I’ve never had these feelings for anyone before. I’ve been crying ever since we broke up and i don’t cry that much. I hope we get back together more than anything because i don’t want to lose him. I want to be in his arms right now. he is my soul mate… and he told me i was his. I kno that he is just confused right now… but soon i plan on running away to see him and never come back to my so called home. I will miss my friends but i miss my love more. he means everything to me.

ok so… I was dating this guy i really loved to death. Everything seemed to be going perfect… or so i thought. just last night we were talking and he told me he wanted to just be friends because we never get to see each other and it was hurting him. he made me promise to still be his friend and that i will still talk to him. i could never stop talking to him tho. he tried everything to make me smile but i couldnt because the love of my life told me he just wanted to be friends. I will always be his friend if it will make him happy because that is all i want is for him to be happy. we talked for a little while last night but i think i made him really sad, but i didnt mean to. that night when we got off the phone with each other i cried. it was strange beacause ive never cried over a guy before. i really do hope we will still be friends, and maybe one day we will get back together. i will never hate him and i will always love him.

Some odd reason I think I can’t love. Maybe I just haven’t found the right guy, maybe I’m still young, or maybe I’m unable to love somebody. I’m not gonna give up yet though! I have my whole life ahead of me.