Chicagogirl1

So close to the end. This cleanse was the right decision. I decided to do it because of personal and emotional issues and turns out my body needed it. It helped me focus and direct my anger, hurt, and swirling emotions positively by working on myself and not dwelling on the actions of others.

I didn’t work out on this cleanse as much as the others but seemed to have lost the same amount of weight. Well, the same rate anyways. My body feels clean. I have not had a large BM in awhile. My energy is up, I’m getting crazy good sleep. My outlook on food and eating is to eat and enjoy when the body needs, not when the mind or heart does. Food is to be enjoyed yes, but it only takes a couple bites to satisfy a craving. Anything more is just mechanically shoveling food into your face for the sake of feeling full.

Our willpower is our own. Food does not control us. Sending lots of positive cleansing vibes to all you cleansers!

Only one more working day after today of this cleanse. After work Thursday, the next time I will be sitting at this desk, I will be drinking a nice big OJ and weaning myself slowly off. I cannot wait to taste that Whole Foods minestrone soup!. It is going to be so so delicious. And Tuesday I’m going to have a Miso Seafood Crunch Salad from CPK which will be so so delicious also. I know I’m getting a little obsessive about food. Must be the not eating in 17 days!

I’m just happy to have my appetite back. I’m happy to have over 2 weeks behind me because it’s two weeks of mental and physical healing. I cna’t wait to just get home, drink my tea, and go to bed putting another day behind me.

4.5 more days to go!

I am losing my trajectory. I can feel it. I only have 6 more days to go including today though so it feels amateurish to quit now. But man I want indian food. Really really badly. Chicken tikki masala and a big basket of naan.

I really hadn’t thought of food much earlier in the cleanse (the whole personal issues problem again). But now as I start to mentally clear out those issues (with help on the cleanse) I am starting to regain my appetite back. And with a vengeance!

Now I can’t stop thinking of lovely delicous solid food. Chewing. Feeling full. I’ve started to go to bed super early to try and curb these thoughts. Really, I only have 5 days to go after today. So I need to draw strength and keep focused. Take one day at a time. And before I know it it will be Monday and I’ll be sipping on lovely delicious orange juice. On tuesday I’ll be able to eat veggie soup. and finally on Wednesday a delicious salad and soup. Bliss!

For now, on day 16. Keep strong, keep strong.