Chilly28r

Sometimes you pick up on vibes of new people you meet and you can feel right away whether they are energy vampires, good people, bad people, etc. I want to feel the special energy of knowing someone is the one. You know, when people say, “you just know”. Yah, that feeling…that’s what I’m looking for….I thought in mid-2009 that I had experienced it but throughout the dating it turned into 50/50 – sure/not sure, etc. It’s been a very long time since I have been in love and am looking forward to falling :-)

I realized from a recent short-term relationship that I was afraid of getting hurt, too close or the relationship would end (I think my gut was telling me something wasn’t quite right though). Unfortunately those fears and gut feeling eventually become reality because fear/gut feeling will dictate your actions towards failure/success. Yes, this lesson came at a price but unfortunately other factors did contribute to the demise; however, some people say if it was meant to be it will and others would say that if both people in the relationship don’t try to work through the good and bad together then there was no hope to begin with…I could go on and on…but hopefully either I will tell you that we got back together better and stronger or I met someone new who is better for me and loves me for me.

What do I want to do?.......... Well, everything.

I have to budget and plan and pay bills like everyone else that isn’t a celebrity so how do I win my goal? Pin my hopes on the lottery? Rich husband? (married to me, not someone else’s) Radically change my lifestyle? Can I save on grocery money by never eating, cancelling my tv and the phone to save more money?

Where do I start?

I want to feel free from credit card debt to move on but I feel the constant pull of financial easiness of not having to “wait until I can afford it”.

I think if I pick my 43 Things counting down to reach #1…..

^{I may just ride in a sports car after all :-)}