CloverGamble

So I’ve been applying like crazy, and after more than four weeks I was beginning to lose heart, because well… I wasn’t getting any calls. ANY. I got three calls in my first two weeks in Portland, so why not now? Luckily, I’d like say a lot of the doubt was in my head, because I finally got a call. Actually, I got two. In the same day.

We still need to set up the interviews, but well, it’s given me hope! I was so down about it, it was getting rather pathetic. It’s taken longer than I initially assumed (but what doesn’t?), but at least I’m making some headway.

You just have to be persistent! I hope the next time I post, it will be to say I have earned my second job!

Seriously, if anyone has a moment to comment on this, I would be eternally grateful.

Upon moving here, my roommate has been miserable. She gets more homesick with each passing day, loathes her new job, and is no longer excited for college. She simply wasn’t ready for this, both mentally and financially, and she has decided she wants to go back home 400 miles away. And will be in 12 days.

We are the best of friends. However, I love it here. I have a great job with so much opportunity, I have already made friends, I have so many things I want to do! This is all I expected and more. And I wanted to share this with her, but we are two separate people. Effectively, I have lost not only my roommate, but contact with my closest and most dear friend.

But… she’s extremely dependent on me. She hates change and can’t handle it (as demonstrated), and me staying breaks her heart. She says it will ruin our friendship (over this?!), says so many awful things. But I don’t want to go back. This is what I want to do for my life, myself, and that’s the most important thing. Living a life for someone else is no way to live.

Anyway, to cut to the chase. I will not be persuaded. I will make my living here, even without her. Just… I don’t know how to make it easier for her or help her understand. I tried my best to explain my take, but nothing works. Am I doomed to lose her, doomed to gain her bitter resentment?

I feel lost.
Everything is in place but her.

(Image by sue_r_b @ sxc.hu)

Despite the time I gave myself, I didn’t reach my ten pound goal before moving to Portland. On the plus side, I haven’t gained any weight, and I have lost five pounds! So at least I’ve been consistent, but just not as much as I was at first. Things have been changing since I’ve moved and my diet is sparkly. My activity isn’t as sparkly yet, but that’s because I haven’t gotten the bike out of storage (we didn’t have a place for it at first). Things will change!

So yes, halfway there! I don’t have a time goal as of yet. We’ll see once I shed off these next five pounds.