”...In a vague way their friends and families sense that these drinkers are abnormal, but everybody hopefully awaits the day when the sufferer will rouse himself from his lethargy and assert his power of will.
The tragic truth is that if the man be a real alcoholic, the happy day may not arrive. He has lost control.” – Alcoholics Anonymous
Do you find yourself in a bar, or at home, and have no intention of drinking, but suddenly, against everything you’re trying to do, just “change your mind” and start drinking? Do you find yourself never knowing when your drinking bout will end? 4 drinks or all night? For me it wasn’t about the amount I was drinking. I never had a DUI. I just felt dead inside, like there was this vacuum in my chest that sucked all the good feelings and meaning out of life. Often, before I got sober, I thought I didn’t have a soul. And, I couldn’t control my drinking after I had one drink.
If anything I wrote strikes a chord with you, take this test: http://alcoholism.about.com/od/tests/a/quiz_alcoholic.htm
There are so many people out there who have recovered from Alcoholism, and want to help. It’s not a curse, and your life doesn’t have to keep resembling a drunken version of Groundhog’s Day.