because I felt I wasn’t making any progress with this goal. The takeaway message is to compare yourself to yourself rather than to other people. I’m not good at remembering things like this. I always need reminders to jolt me back out of whatever pit I am beginning to get sucked into.
Now that the new varsity year is here, academic comparison has begun to creep back in. So I have printed out my marks from last year and stuck them on the wall. It feels good to see them all there together, a standalone unit, a whole, not nested in among everyone else’s where the temptation is just too much. When I look at that wall, I see only my own striving for excellence. What is equally important is what I do not see. I don’t see mass assessment and how I ranked on that. I hate it when they put up class lists with everyone’s marks. Your marks should be for you and you only.
Feb 10, 10:01AM PST | 3 cheers | 1 comment
to be more pleasant towards Body. Mainly, I lack patience with her. I expect her to fulfill my every demand regardless of whether or not I’ve been meeting her needs, seeing to her injuries or otherwise taking care of her. I am slowly coming to accept, with only short relapses into frustration, that recovery will not be as fast as I’d like. Nor will I be able to lose the extra weight I’ve picked up for quite some time. And I’m not going to get her there any faster by bullying her.
Feb 08, 08:34AM PST | 2 cheers | 0 comments
This time it’s about my negative attitude towards going back to university. I’ve already sorted it out a bit by reducing my load. I realised that I was mainly feeling stressed and overworked.
I have one more week before varsity starts and I’m going to spend it working on this goal.
Feb 06, 02:51AM PST | 3 cheers | 0 comments