Not all who wander are lost




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Not all who wander are lost's Life List

  1. 1. Make the most of my 20's
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    513 people
  2. 2. be celibate until I am in a committed relationship with Mr. Right
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    2 people
  3. 3. Save money
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    12,035 people
  4. 4. buy a car
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    2,223 people
  5. 5. Be Focused And Determined And Make Things Happen
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    271 people
  6. 6. go back to school
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    1,971 people
  7. 7. finish my bachelors degree
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    372 people
  8. 8. stop thinking about suicide
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    78 people
  9. 9. manage my bipolar disorder
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    120 people
  10. 10. Quit weighing myself so often
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    3 people
  11. 11. Overcome my eating disorder.
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    333 people
  12. 12. be comfortable in my own skin
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    400 people
  13. 13. Be less of a perfectionist
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    123 people
  14. 14. Stop caring what other people think of me
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    3,594 people
  15. 15. stop hurting people
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    27 people
  16. 16. stop homophobia
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    113 people
  17. 17. Help end racism
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    13 people
  18. 18. learn Spanish
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  19. 19. become a feminist superhero
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    40 people
  20. 20. learn American Sign Language
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    445 people
  21. 21. Get a PhD
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  22. 22. connect with the people in my life more deeply
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    26 people
  23. 23. actually learn to play my guitar
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    513 people
  24. 24. Learn to play the cello
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    653 people
  25. 25. Learn to play the piano
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    6,051 people
  26. 26. have nothing in my house that I do not know to be useful, or believe to be beautiful
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    27 people
  27. 27. get a professional massage
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    238 people
  28. 28. clean my room
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    2,358 people
  29. 29. Donate old clothes to charity
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    113 people
  30. 30. buy a bike
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    321 people
  31. 31. pay off my credit card
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    1,274 people
  32. 32. get out of debt
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    8,843 people
  33. 33. identify 100 things that make me happy.
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    1,756 people
  34. 34. believe the compliments that are given to me
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    5 people
  35. 35. Get a gym membership
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    58 people
  36. 36. Help My 43T Friends acheive their Goals
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    43 people
  37. 37. post random questions daily and see if anyone plays with me and answers them :)
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Recent entries
manage my Bipolar disorder (read all 25 entries…)
Walking on a wire in the circus 8 months ago

Sometimes when I’m on
I’m really fucking on
and my friends all sing along and they love me.
But the lows are so extreme
that the good seems fucking cheap,
and it teases me for weeks in its absence.
But I’ll fight, and I’ll make it through.
I’ll fake it if I have to
and I’ll show up for work with a smile.
I’ll be better, I’ll be smarter,
more grown up and a better daughter
and a real good friend.


be celibate until I am in a committed relationship with Mr. Right
A wandering heart and mind 8 months ago

From across the table, my eyes never leave his.
His lips sip from his mug and I yearn for them to be on me.
Inching closer, our feet mingle;
our hands touch again and there’s nothing that can break our stare.
Lips embrace, tongues mesh,
pure passion – straight up.

But the only thing we’re sharing is this diner’s booth,
and conversation over coffee.
I shake my head and ask him to repeat that last sentence
Reality sets in and I need a refill.


manage my Bipolar disorder (read all 25 entries…)
Life is...gonna be okay 8 months ago

Here I am, sitting in front of my Mac with my Oriental Shorthair purring in my lap, typing, rambling away as an attempt to make sense of my racing thoughts and cycling moods. I’m feeling down, but I know it could be worse. I feel submerged in lonliness but I know I’m not alone. A few years ago, if I were to dip into a mood like this, I would swallow half a bottle of NyQuil and draw a razor blade over my thighs until I passed out from the sedative. I certainly am making progress with this. I need to remember that.

Just breathe.

Its gonna be okay.

Good night everyone,
Meg


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