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Courageous Heart

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I'm doing 43 things
  

Courageous Heart's Life List

  1. 1. Screw up to the beat of my own drum
    1 entry . 10 cheers     		1 person
  2. 2. Give myself the time and space I need to heal, even if that means distancing myself from people who want to spend time with me
    3 entries . 5 cheers     		1 person
  3. 3. Embrace Independence. Don't be afraid to trust myself, face my own fears at my own pace, and go it alone, on my terms, my way.
    4 entries . 7 cheers     		1 person
  4. 4. Read a book about recovering and healing from rape so I can find the courage to learn and understand what's going on inside my own heart
    6 entries . 4 cheers     		2 people
  5. 5. recognize that there are times to put others first and times to put myself first and learn to tell the difference
    6 cheers     		2 people
  6. 6. Indulge myself in 5 different unnecessary and frivolous professional beauty treatments not because anyone will notice or that I care that much what I look like, but because it feels good to pamper yourself and look out for number one once in a while
    3 cheers     		2 people
  7. 7. Write about my experience with rape openly and candidly so I can find the courage to open my heart nice and wide and love passionately
    7 entries . 34 cheers     		1 person
  8. 8. Find the courage to take risks in everything I do. Take creative risks. Take athletic risks. Take travel risks. Take career risks. Take romantic risks. Be good at being uncomfortable.
    4 entries . 14 cheers     		1 person
  9. 9. model nude for an art class
    1 entry . 5 cheers     		8 people
  10. 10. Embrace Uncertainty
    1 entry . 9 cheers     		3 people
  11. 11. Put my inner critic in its place because it's not the boss of me!
    2 entries . 17 cheers     		1 person
  12. 12. list 50 women little girls should admire instead of symbols of stupidity and weakness
    10 entries . 16 cheers     		117 people
  13. 13. download photos of fun, fearless female musicians and rock stars who inspire me and make them into a screensaver
    7 entries . 9 cheers     		1 person
  14. 14. Surround myself with confident, supportive, encouraging, fun and fearless female friends
    7 cheers     		1 person
  15. 15. Be the confident, supportive, encouraging, fun and fearless female friend I want to hang out with
    1 entry . 6 cheers     		1 person
  16. 16. Feel more comfortable dressing feminine, classy, or elegant. Wear high heeled shoes, flirty skirts, dangly earrings, and let my hair down!
    4 entries . 9 cheers     		1 person
  17. 17. make my decisions knowing that you regret more the chances you miss than the mistakes you make
    1 entry . 8 cheers     		4 people
  18. 18. Be classy in social situations: try and make others feel good about themselves, don't brag about myself or flaunt anything, and be a fantastic listener!
    2 cheers     		1 person
  19. 19. Accept the past and forgive those who have hurt, betrayed or violated me, because resentment is a heavy burden for my heart to lug around.
    1 entry . 9 cheers     		1 person
  20. 20. Forgive myself for those I have unintentionally hurt because I didn't have the confidence to believe I had that much to offer.
    3 entries . 7 cheers     		1 person
  21. 21. Finally get up the nerve to tell him that I love him back just so that he knows how I feel and that I never meant to break his heart - I was just too scared to tell him before. Maybe. Or should I?
    6 entries . 1 cheer     		1 person
  22. 22. Don't spend my whole life dreaming. wake up and make things happen.
    1 entry . 43 cheers     		4 people
  23. 23. stop making decisions in my romantic life based on sensible and practical factors, like money, career, age, family, looks, or what other people think
    3 cheers     		1 person
  24. 24. never hold myself back from falling in love, no matter how afraid I am and no matter how many times my heart gets crushed, destroyed, devastated or pulvarized
    1 entry . 2 cheers     		3 people
  25. 25. find an adventurous partner in crime who makes my heart feel alive and my flesh tingle, who is capable of respecting me, inspiring me, challenging me, accepting me without judging me, and believing in me even when I don't believe in myself
    1 entry . 10 cheers     		1 person
  26. 26. Be the independent and free-spirited person I want to be with
    5 cheers     		1 person
  27. 27. Actively seek romance and adventure
    9 cheers     		1 person
  28. 28. Wear red shoes
    3 entries . 14 cheers     		2 people
  29. 29. Step Into the Blank Page
    5 cheers     		1 person
  30. 30. Write like no one's reading
    1 entry . 21 cheers     		3 people
  31. 31. Perform random acts of generosity
    7 cheers     		2 people
  32. 32. Share song lyrics that fuel me with courage
    4 entries . 6 cheers     		1 person
  33. 33. Share quotations that inspire me
    1 entry . 8 cheers     		1 person
  34. 34. Get up, dust myself off and climb back in the saddle each time I get knocked down.
    2 entries . 5 cheers     		1 person
  35. 35. Be resilient. Because I'm not made of glass. And the things that don't kill us make us stronger.
    1 entry . 5 cheers     		1 person
  36. 36. Be patient with myself, forgive myself, and accept myself where I'm at, exactly how I am.
    6 cheers     		2 people
  37. 37. learn when to drive my destiny and when to let go of the wheel
    6 cheers     		4 people
  38. 38. Complete the "Relationships" section of the "cleansweep my life" checklist up to 25/25 because I think it will have the greatest impact.
    1 entry . 2 cheers     		1 person
  39. 39. Have a healthy relationship with my heart: don't be afraid to trust it and let it do its own thing once in a while. Don't be afraid to feel vulnerable.
    6 cheers     		1 person
  40. 40. Have a healthy relationship with my body. Don't let my self-esteem be a slave to my muscle tone. Exercise because: outdoor sports are healthy, energizing, challenging, thrilling, and scenic.
    5 cheers     		1 person
  41. 41. Have a healthy relationship with being female. Don't be ashamed to show off my natural beauty and don't feel vulnerable dressing like a girl. Recognize that it's the strength inside of us that is far more powerful than physical strength.
    5 cheers     		1 person
  42. 42. Have a healthy relationship with my own needs: treat my body like a temple, do what makes me feel good, and always look out for number one!
    3 cheers     		1 person
  43. 43. Have a healthy relationship with my spirit and soul. Actively seek creative inspiration and be fun, fearless and spontaneous. Crank the tunes, step on the gas and go on adventures.
    9 cheers     		1 person
Recent entries
Read a book about recovering and healing from rape so I can find the courage to learn and understand what's going on inside my own heart (read all 6 entries…)
Ordered two books 6 days ago

I ordered The Truth About Rape and I Never Called it Rape. I now have concrete hard copies of the books. I am a bit afraid to read them – I think I am afraid that I will get all emotional and intense and moody. But I’m hoping they will give me some insight into all the difficult feelings and help me to better understand the stuff I went through.

I have flipped through them a bit and smelled the pages. Even just having physical copies of the books makes everything feel much more concrete and real – like the experience took place in the physical world and not just some abstract place inside my head.

One of the books has transcripts from a bunch of therapy sessions which i hope will be really interesting to read because i have always been curious about therapy and interested in psychology in general, so hopefully the books won’t just teach me about myself but other people as well.

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Embrace Independence. Don't be afraid to trust myself, face my own fears at my own pace, and go it alone, on my terms, my way. (read all 4 entries…)
Not as scary as I thought it would be!! 6 days ago

So i’m going it alone again – i moved solo to a new town in the mountains and got a new job – and it’s not as hard as i thought it would be. actually, i’m loving it – life is sweeter than it’s been in a long time. i thought this goal would be really scary and daunting, but it’s totally liberating!! proving to myself that i can be super independent and handle anything life throws my way is actually boosting my confidence huge and inspiring me even more to take all kinds of risks!!!

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Give myself the time and space I need to heal, even if that means distancing myself from people who want to spend time with me (read all 3 entries…)
Making huge progress on this goal 6 days ago

This summer I have decided to give myself tons of independence and distance from people who were otherwise “cramping my style.” at first i was really afraid to do a lot of things on my own (i moved to a new town and started a new job) but now that i’ve gotten a bit settled and started to figure things out, i’ve realized that it’s not really that scary to be on your own. actually it’s quite liberating, and i’m lovin’ doing my own thing!!! i have total freedom to do what i want, see who i want, and live my life on my terms. whoo-hooo!!!

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