I'm doing 20 things
I thought starting at a new school would give me the motivation I needed to start participating in life, taking more initiative, but it hasn’t. It feels like I’ve been walking in circles, have the same circling thoughts, and I’ve been getting nowhere. I’m only 16, I spend most of my time either doing homework or playing videogames. I lock myself off from everyone. I avoid people/things on a regular basis. And when I go to bed at night, I cry. Almost every night. I have no motivation, no self-confidence. No close relationships in my life. Not even with my parents. I’m incredibly withdrawn. It’s not a matter of loving myself, at this point I just want to be stable. Sane. I can’t tell you the last time I smiled geniunely.
Jessica Girdner's Life List
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1. socialize more
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2. get a girlfriend
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3. find myself
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4. Sketch more
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5. list 200 things that make me happy
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6. Go to therapy
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7. meet more new people
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8. go backpacking
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9. Wake up at 6:00 am every day
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10. make straight a's
109 people -
11. get my learner's permit
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12. make a friend
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13. learn how to play a song on the piano
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14. make tea
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15. go outside everyday
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16. eat healthier
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17. do something that scares me everyday
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18. do yoga
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19. meditate regularly
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20. Stop being depressed
534 people
How I did it
It made me
Happy 
How I did it: Well I don't know if this is going to help anyone because I doubt they'll ever go through the same experience I did. I attended this wilderness program a few months ago. I came into the program shy, timid, unsure of myself. I barely talked to any of the people in my group, but each day got better. I did little things each day like start up a conversation with another person even if I was a little scared to. I … Read how I did it…
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For the past 4 months I’ve been feeling extremely depressed. It’s been going on mildly for the past 2 years but worsened in the last four months. I need therapy, and my Dad doesn’t know I have a problem. How do I break it to him?
For the past 4 months I’ve been feeling extremely depressed. It’s been going on mildly for the past 2 years but worsened in the last four months. I need therapy, and my Dad doesn’t know I have a problem. How do I break it to him?
