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Wow, don’t know what to say anymore
You know what? Things aren’t the way i want it to go
Honestly not because of anything, but because of my parents, did your parents ever embarres you in front of all the family members for something you did but when you were together they were okay with it?
I never knew my parents were like that :(

People come and go in our lives. Some leave a lasting imprint on our hearts while others leave a bitter taste in our mouth. In my 12 years of existence, I must have acquainted with more than a thousand of people in my life. I must admit, very few of them stayed. And they are who you call FRIENDS.

Recently, I gave a shout out to my dearest friends who stood by me through my worst and I am very grateful that I have a wonderful set of people with me. However, I can’t deny the fact that there are certain people who have hurt me in the past, friends who betrayed me, walked away from me, and used me. Anyone who experienced this must know that it was the worst feeling in the world to lose a friend, especially if you gave your trust 100%.

Few days ago, someone cried to me asking me to forgive someone who betrayed me. Now, I am not the type of person who keeps grudges for so long. But a betrayal from someone you consider your best friend is indescribable. I guess what made it more painful at that time is that the friendship was torn apart for the most shameful reason ever. From then on, I became very picky with the people I trust. That’s why even though I have lots of good friends, I usually keep most of my problems to myself. Until now I find it hard to forgive that person, but I know time heals all wounds. A simple sorry from her can be a start though.

Then there’s another one who promised to not let go of me, but he did. I guess the reason for the fall-out is that the words thrown upon me were too painful to take. How would you feel when you care for someone so deeply and the person did nothing but literally take you for granted? I knew I had to walk away because I have to keep what’s left of my self-respect. I guess I just pressed the exhausted button. I still feel sad until now, but what can I do? As they say: People change and so do feelings. Accept that.
-Jana Abu-Seraj