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I know, I know!! I really do…
It’s not fun to be around someone who is always sad, but I can’t help it when my ‘friend’ who meant the world to me was actually saying things like “Ugly, Grotesque, Fat, Annoying, Boring, Creepy, Asian Trash, etc…” It’s really hard to be happy again, and maybe make friends again, too.

Why can’t I be happy??

I really hope, that someday, I can learn to forgive myself of everything I have done to others, whether it’s being in that person’s life, or scaring the person, or letting them down…
Maybe then, I can learn to be nicer to my self.

I have NO self confidence… Hence people don:t like to be around me, which leads to even LESS self confidence.
Uck, it would help if i were a bit more loved.