CurlyBird

I like that no matter what happens – when she stumbles or doesn’t quite reach her goals – I’m always there to hug her, tell her I love her, help her see the lesson in the struggle and let her know that it’s all part of the journey. I have faith in her that she’ll make it one day.

She seems to be the one person who I can quite easily love unconditionally. What a gift this is for my heart. If biology is making it easy in this one case, I’m grateful for being able to practice on her so I can eventually do it with others in a whole-hearted way as well.

I’m a really talented fine artist. My work could hang in a gallery. It has taken me years of dedication to get to this level. I take this gift for granted but if I were asked before I was born to pick a talent that I would be given, I would have chosen this.

I’m very proud of my artistic talent.

43things makes me feel good as I cheer other people on…!

My heart feels full tonight – so many good people in the world, trying to be better. :-)

Peace.

I have gone further and done more than my childhood prepared me to do. I am proud of this! It’s important for me to keep this in perspective. When I stumble or struggle with things that might come easily to some, I must remember how much better my life is now than my life was as a child. I made my life as good as it is now.

I will learn to nuture myself so I can give more to others. I’ve gotten past the education hurdles and the career hurdles now it’s time to really live and give to my family more love and attention than I had. I can do this. It does not have to deplete me – I just have to start by welcoming love into my heart. To trust that people can care for me. Trust. Love. Relax. Don’t be too hard on myself. Laugh at myself more. Laugh more in general!

I’ve been struggling a bit lately. Comparing myself to others; being jealous. It needs to stop. I need to remember all the good that radiates from within ME.

One of my good traits is that I never assume that I am completely right. I may feel strongly about my POV but I can almost always see a glimmer into what the other person is feeling. I know that there is never really a right and wrong—there are so many shades of gray. This is a special quality that I am proud of.

My partner is the one who challenges me the most on this. He and I are so different, it can be very difficult for me to see his side of things. Even if I don’t admit it straight away, I almost always can kinda, sorta understand his position.

I keep growing and learning. I am open. That’s a pretty wonderful thing.

Taking photos on my walks this past weekend really added to the experience. I’m going to try to make this a habit. :)

I’m going to go work out and lay in the sauna… and dream a little dream. Open my mind and allow stories to flow in. Just need a small idea – doesn’t have to be earth shattering – just something to get me started tomorrow.

Good luck everyone…!!! :-)

I have an idea for a book. I’m going to write a page a night and try to not over perfect each sentence and paragraph as I go. Something a little tighter than stream of conciousness but only slightly so.

I’ve had this book in me for a long time. Wish me luck.

I treated myself to new towels and shower curtain (the shower curtain is soft, white terry cloth so it feels good when you brush against it), big fluffy slippers, and soft and cozy lounge wear – so I guess I’m treatin myself like a guest in a luxury spa. That doesn’t suck… and why the heck not?!? :-D

I got the buyer’s response to the inspection – he wants one very minor thing taken care of. This is just about done. It closes on November 29.

Now that I’m all settled in (well, almost—there are still boxes tucked away here and there) I can see that the move wasn’t all that bad. I hired movers and a truck so that helps a lot plus the place I moved into is big enough to absorb all my stuff relatively easily.

I just bought new towels last night for my new home – super lush and soft. I’m feeling all relaxed and cozy here. :-)

I’ve been juggling a lot – getting the house ready to put on the market and organizing/packing up my house. I have to say I have been extremely calm through it all. When the movers were at my place today I took a step back and felt proud of myself. I go with the flow and can think more clearly because of it. Peace is just a state of mind. No matter what external stuff happens, I seem to be doing OK.

What a great place to be in my life.

Wonderful show – a period piece set in the 1930s. All female cast—story of relationships, loyalty and adultery. Some very funny characters and fantastic costumes.

Four movers and a truck arrived at 9 am this morning and moved me out. I’m spending the first night in my new home. wow – it doesn’t feel real yet.

We’re very happy tonight.

Too much to pack. Boxes. Packing. Bubble Wrap. So much crap, so little time!

• Tues: minor house cleaning for pictures
• Wed: dead tree removal and interior real estate pictures
• Thurs: yard clean-up, gutters cleaned and power washing
• Fri: outside real estate pix
• Sat: movers
• Following Wed: Big huge deep cleaning and interior/exterior window cleaning
  ...and then it’s on the market!

Whew! I’d better stop fooling around online and get back to packing…!!!!

I was excited to be with me today so I got dressed up ‘specially for myself (just like I would for any other special guest who came to call.)

It felt lovely.

It goes on the market in a week and a half. I hope it goes to a nice family. It’s a great house.

We’re a good team and we teach each other a lot. I know it won’t always be perfect but we have gotten very good at dealing with our differences in mature, calm ways. He is patient, intensely smart and makes me laugh all the time. I love him very much for who he is and for how he makes me feel. He supports me, praises me – he seems to see the good in most situations and most people, too. Like I said, he teaches me a lot.

I gave this decision a tremendous amount of thought. Nothing is black and white. This closeness – it can be scary too. Love was much easier when I didn’t care so much. This is different. There are risks.

We will merge our lives in less than a week. I can’t wait.

I hope it works out for her. Her handbags are beautiful!!!