with all of the stress going on in my life i havent had the time to make a plan for me to achieve this goal. you know what? im going to log off right now and start making this plan.
DaXia's Life List
1. download all inuyasha episodes
2. get over him
3. lose 20 pounds
4. clean my room and keep it clean
5. go back to school
6. stop biting my nails
7. record my dreams
8. save money
9. pray more often
....and about 3 days ago i dreamt he showed up at my house with his new girlfriend. they were hugging and kissing right in front of me! all i did was to pretend i was chatting with a guy just to make him jealous. but it didnt work. so then they were leaving and when he was going to close the door he said “bye” and i wouldnt answer him so he said just laughed and said it 2 more times until i finally told him bye with a voice so sad and weak. then he shut the door. as soon as he did that i ran to my room to cry and to write in my diary. i wrote down:”i cant believe he actually showed up to my house with his new girlfriend.” then i stopped for a second and began to think that he was cheating…suddenly i woke up with tears in my eyes, wondering if it really happened. as soon as i realized it was only a nightmare i thanked God for not letting me experience that in real life.
well my family and i finally moved to another place about 5 days ago. i havent talked to him since the day before we moved. he knew we were moving, but didnt know where. i guess its for the best that he doesnt know where i live now. sometimes i just want to pick up the phone and tell him where i am….but i cant and wont do it. i have to get over him. so whatever happened to that rumor???? i dont know…i honestly dont. but right now it doesnt even matter. and besides…hes not all that interested in me… we kept the same phone number and no calls from him (wich is good i suppose) i should just stop thinking about him!!! but i cant…ugh! the worst part is that we argued that day and i just hung up the phone on him. i feel bad for doing that. maybe thats why i cant stop thinking about him. i truly hope and pray thats hes alright. even if he has made my heart suffer i wish him the best of luck…