I have always loved to talk about other people’s lives. I like gossip. I never pass information that I think is truly endangering to someone. I wouldn’t jeopardize someone legally, however, I might relate some private detail that ought not to be shared.
This is a terrible habit.
I think it comes from my desire to tell my partner everything. I like to share everything with the person I’m closest too. It is as if they had some special privilege to the secrets of my other friends. So, generally, I’d like to try and stop talking about people I’m close to in such an intimate way.
There are probably ways to modify my descriptions so that the person’s identity is always anonymous.
There are some things that I just shouldn’t ever share at all.
I resolve to change. Next time I find myself about to gossip I’m going to remember what I wrote here.
Yeah.
Mar 31, 2006, 11:04AM PST | 2 cheers | 0 comments
It’s strange that I would want to go to this reunion. I haven’t gone to any others, and I never had the slightest urge before.
High School was socially awkward for me. I was generally an outcast and made friends with the people on the fringes. I’m not in regular contact with anyone from my senior graduating class.
At any rate, suddenly I feel more curious than malevolent about my former classmates.
Feb 19, 2006, 01:01PM PST | 1 cheer | 1 comment
It seems like I do the worst things unconsciously. The damage is done when I am acting impulsively and selfishly at the same time. I act without thinking and almost always regret my acts.
My goal is to become aware of the selfish urges before they become real acts. I need to control myself better when I am in a sour mood. I can be cruel in a moment of distraction, without thinking abou consequences I sometimes make really selfish choices that I know will have adverse affects for people I love. Later I am so full of regret. What I want to do is become aware of the urges to behave this way and try to prevent them from becoming actions.
Feb 19, 2006, 12:55PM PST | 3 cheers | 0 comments
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