Daisy1108

i’m beginning to notice how awfully this is affecting my life. not only do i feel constant shame, but i’m losing confidence with eat bite. i miss feeling good about my body and my health habits. i feel like a hypocrite and know that the longer i let this continue, the more serious a psychological problem it can become. i’m beginning my new year’s resolution early. when i return from thanksgiving i am going to start a completely new food log, in which i tell EVERYTHING! from how i feel before i eat and after as well. i’ll be home for christmas in 3 weeks, and want to have a strong enough grasp on my feelings about food that i don’t feel out of control and nervous about always being near a stocked pantry.

i took a class at the local honda dealership. first, i had to get my learner’s permit – just stop by the licensor’s to take a written test and pay the fee. if you read the study material beforehand the test should be extremely easy. the riding course was actually a lot of fun. it only took 2 days, saturday and sunday, for about six hours each day. we spent maybe 2 or 3 hours learning in the classroom, but most of the time was spent on the motorcycles in a riding arena. i still don’t have my own bike, but it was empowering and i feel like a badass anyways ; )

so i’ve been doing a lot better. keeping a food journal really helps. i realize that by planning on having a late night snack, even if it is popcorn or icecream, allows me something to count on throughout the day and that it is even that more satisfying. it’s becoming easier to beat my cravings by being more attentive to my overall needs instead of completely restricting myself. a few times lately i’ve still eaten too much, but it hasn’t really been a binge. if that makes sense. it’s not as though i’ve ran through the kitchen shoving everything in my mouth that i could get my hands on like i used to. go me!