I feel like Im losing control of myself and I cant get control back. At the moment my thoughts are racing and I cant stop it. At the moment Ive got this painful feeling in my chest that I cant let go. I just want to be in control and get my emotions back under control, but at the moment I cant. Emotional pain is the worst cause u cant escape. I cant escape from what I am today. I cant accept myself, I cant accept my emotions. I just want it all to stop, I just want myself to stop. I visted a friend yesterday and they said that some people that I work with are worried about me cause I get super highs and super lows, and that I need to control myself again. I just cant control myself, I just cant control anything… I just want it all to stop… Im starting to wanna drink alchol to just escape some of it now and I wanna try drugs like estasy and weed cause I just want to try everything once but itz against my morales but at the moment I dont have any morales. I cant think straight and I just dont care anymore… I am losing control…
Mar 28, 2011, 08:01PM PDT | 4 comments
- To “let go” does not mean to stop caring; it means I can’t do it for someone else.
- To “let go” is not to cut myself off; it’s the realization I can’t control another.
- To “let go” is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.
- To “let go” is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.
- To “let go” is not to try to change or blame another; it’s to make the most of myself.
- To “let go” is not to care for, but to care about.
- To “let go” is not to fix, but to be supportive.
- To “let go” is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.
- To “let go” is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own destinies.
- To “let go” is not to be protective; it’s to permit another to face reality.
- To “let go” is not to deny, but to accept.
- To “let go” is not to nag, scold or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
- To “let go” is not to criticize and regulate anybody, but to try to become what I dream I can be.
- To “let go” is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
- To “let go” is to not regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.
- To “let go” is to fear less and love myself more.
Jan 30, 2011, 08:10PM PST | 0 comments
There is no detachment where there is no pain. And there is no pain endured without hatred or lying unless detachment is present too.
Jan 30, 2011, 07:22PM PST | 0 comments
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