I'm doing 40 things
I just had my first appointment with my help from Guidelight today. I have to see the doctor about increasing medications first before we, that is to say myself and my help, go further. There are two things that my help said, Sadness and enjoyment. I have to get rid of the sadness with the help of medicaion before I can truely enjoy things in life. She made sense. She also said to me that I have to write a daily diary of how I am doing and wat I do during the day, like behaviors food activities moods ect. Also I have to think of the 10 most significant things in my life. I have to send that too her before our next appointment so she can see what is getting me down. Hopefully this will help me.
I need to see light at the end of the tunnel. I need to see something that is worth it. I just want to get out of here – I just dont want to feel like this anymore – it is going to kill me one of these dayz…
Darkangel89's Life List
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1. Beat my depression
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2. be happy!
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3. be more positive
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4. get help
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5. stop being so insecure
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6. Get a tattoo
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7. exercise regularly
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8. be more confident
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9. be more social
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10. open myself up to people more
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11. have no regrets
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12. find someone that understands me
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13. Think Of 100 Movie's That You Saw As A Kid
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14. stop procrastinating
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15. Be a better friend
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16. Get organized
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17. think before i speak
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18. be a better person
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19. Get my nose pierced.
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20. make a difference
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21. Give 1000 cheers
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22. be more patient
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23. To live instead of exist
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24. be more assertive
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25. create the soundtrack to my life
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26. stop pushing people away when I need help
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27. compile a 100-things-about-me list
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28. Start Enjoying Life A Little More!
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29. make a list of 100 quotes that I like
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30. take more risks
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31. Watch 1000 movies
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32. know when to ask for help
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33. get out of debt
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34. be polyamorous
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35. work in a brothel
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36. overcome anxiety
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37. Read 50 books in 2009.
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38. Read more books
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39. do first things first
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40. die
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DepNet.com.au is a depression community that ppl with depression trying to help other ppl with depression. Ima not really thinking. Ima watching greys anatomy atmz and have been watching it all day.
Ima feeling empty and hollow today. Like I cant concertrate or think. I feel like Ima drugged up to the point where Ima just staring into space. Like nothing matterz to me. I dont want to talk or see anyone for the reason that I might have outbursts and that I have been hurt and let down by everyone I know. I want to be alone for the reason that I dont want to get hurt again and again. I expect too much and I just expect anything at all which is not good so therefore I dont expect anything at all from anyone. Work is my life and thatz all…. I have no energy to sit up or do anything… I just want to sleep and never wake up…
It getz u no where in life. Ur just exsisting in this world where ur just going crazy in ur mind and u cant help urself. Just existing to the point where u SEE no point in anything, where u SEE no point in living…
