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Being home with my parents feeling love and not being reminded by everything of him makes it a little easier to be here… Things are getting easier. One day at a time.

An Ex recently found me on myspace. I really want nothing to do with him… but I don’t want to be mean to him!

I’m giving thanks to my family this great Thanksgiving.

Today was a lot easier. It started off terrible, and I dreaded it, then I went and taught, they did a parade for their Halloween costumes. It was really cute to see them all. They were so excited to show off their costumes, and there were so many creative ones! I hung out until around 8:00 when I had to go set up for the colleges Halloween dance. I was making and handing out non alcoholic drinks and having a blast, after my shift I had to rush back and be on duty. Duty was very enjoyable! There was a lot of laughing. A good day. I know somethings going to hit me again but it’s nice to feel ok. Even a little bit.

Today I sat in literature for children class, people were doing book talks and presenting. The first book was “I’ll love you forever”. Both the girl and a majority of the class were crying. the next book was the “velveteen rabbit” the girl started off her speech by saying “We all have loved someone, and we all know that when you do you want to spend all the time in the world with them.” If I hadn’t had to present next I probably would’ve excused myself. However my presentation went well. I took this morning off. Not going to work. But I did go to all my classes. It was good to get some sleep, even though I can’t get enough to not be exhausted all the time. But it was hard to be positive today. I had a few happy moments. Like working tonight I enjoyed watching residents play rootbeer pong. They had fun. I called my mom and she makes me feel better. I may cry first but she’s my mom. And I want nothing more than to be with her.