Deo_Volente

No one else seems interested in learning new things like i am. I am actually refering to my friends and family. It seems like everything I want to try or anything I want to learn I end up doing it by myself, which is really no fun. Like skydiving, no one immediate to me wanted to go skydiving so i opted to go by myself, and Australia, everyone (friends for instance) said they would love to go and when time came they opted out so I went by myself. Yes I saw an amazing country I backpacked and met amazing people who I would never forget but unlike most of them I was traveling by myself and therfore had noone to share the scenes and adventures with and pictures just didnt turn out the same as the view or actually being there. Now I want to learn the single ladies dance, its pretty old I know but I never learnt a chrographed dance in years and it would be fun. Maybe bring out the sexy side a little bit more :). I was visiting an old friend in Toronto and we werent doing anything for the couple of nites that I was there but watching you tube so I said to her, lets learn the single lady dance and she said that would be cool at first. Then when I said I am serious she hesitated and days went by and everytime I brought it up she shruged it off or changed the subject. Maybe she feels too old to learn something or maybe she felt that it was stupid I dont know. We seem to have different views on things but it still hurt. And just a few moments ago I asked my sister to show me one of the moves because shes really good at the Beyonce hips thing and she pretty muched brushed me off. So now I am learning another thing by myself. It sucks but whatever.

Unfortunatly we dont have an actual peace corps. I did some research on alternatives though. Besides the usual volunteer vacations abroad for the price of an arm and a leg and the Canadian ARMY forces. I found CUSO./VSO (a non for profit organization similar to the peace corps offered to Canadians). You need a substantial amount of experience and a specialization. I went to one of their local events and everyone was older, had teaching degrees or agricultural specializations, retired doctors etc. And then there was me, a 24 year old female with an advertising diploma and security experience. That was a downer. I really want to do this though! I believe its my true calling. Where theres a will, theres a way.

I dont know i have my up days and down days, these days are mostly down. I know most people feel this way but it seems like everyone has it together but me and times tickin. Now these days i have these stomach aches near my ribs and i get dizzy once it starts acting up and i dont have an appetite because of it. I think its an ulcer but the doctors havent figured it out yet. So thats new, making me have alot more down days then b4.