Yes, the big C word is on me and not just any but blood cancer in stage 3 and not necessarily from the smoking either because my dad had the same and I was told it could be hereditary. I have a high tolerance to pain and on top of this was misdiagnosed a few times with so called boils, both not good things in my case. I haven’t quit smoking and in the last 2 months since my diagnosis I almost felt as though it were a waste to bother now because stage 3 is not very promising but in the last few days I guess I’m realizing that it would make me more comfortable for one thing. The coughing makes me jolt my body around too much which causes more pain than I already have and even though the prognosis is not generally a good one, there is still a chance that with a good outlook and quality care I may improve to the point of living slightly longer and being more comfortable with the time I have left. The only scan I have left is to the abdomen/pelvis area but so far the cancer has reached all else except the brain and possibly the bones. There is a small ? attached to one rib but they are not sure if it is cancer or just irritation or scar tissue. It has gotten to the chest cavities, lungs, liver, etc. I am not depressed, surprisingly but I will tell you that I’ve been through a lot of painfull things in my life, including car accidents and never experienced anything remotely like the pain that led me to check into it further and find the cause. I have this to say about it. Whether you have a low or high tolerance to pain, always, I mean always, pay attention to it. Pain is the body’s way of telling you there is something wrong. Next thing… if the pain medicine they offer is not sufficient, ask for a stronger one. I was believing an old myth at first that if you takie too strong a medicine at the beginning and then it gets worse later, ther will be nothing to work for the relief. I hope I explained that okay. The point is I was wrong and the pain was almost unbearable until I found that out. Now, at least I’m able to relax somewhat. I would like to share more with you but for now I will tell you I still think it’s a worthy thing to quit smoking, now that the discouraging news is not new news any longer and I am settling a bit better. I have made a few feeble attempts at a blog to record some thoughts and helpful advice for anyone who this may happen to but so far I am not only busy with appointments but also at a loss for other words of advice. I will keep you updated. May the Good Lord see fit to help you all who are trying to quit by giving you strength and for those of you who do not want to, I pray that He gives you the want. Thanks in advance for any cheers and prayers because I will be busy with treatments for some time to come and may not have the time to get back to all as I’d like to. I only have one online blog left that I keep up with regularly now and for purposes of part time forgetting my own problems, it is not related to cancer in any way. You can find it here http://surviveitinstyle.blogspot.com/
Peace, you all!,
Sherry
