I'm doing 39 things
I My life has been SAVED by a Dead teenager I only ever met once, (Not born again christian crap dont get excited)
Eric Died of cancer 2 days ago he was 19 years old I went to the viewing with sime of my family… I have Borderline Personality disorder and suffer from Depression I have also been suicidle since i was 11 have atempted suicied multipul times… i am now 19, I went to Eric’s funeral yesterday… there he was this kid i never really knew, lying there in his skull bandana his favorite cd’s and dvd’d layed out in the casket, next to him in a a chair a young blonde girl not much older then me Sobbing in his mothers arms… i later found out from one of erics friends the blonde was his girlfriend, i was also told that only twodays earlyer he had bought an engagement ring… he never got to give it to her. his older brother stood next to his casket stroking his little brothers face and fixing his shirt. I sat in silence thinking about all the people i loved, hearing the weeping of his mother, I gave my Last thoughts of taking my own life to God… later that day I attended my Pregnant cousins Baby-Shower, everyone laughing and smiling celibraiting this new life, I played with the babys bassent listining to the tinkering soung or a babys mobil, God lifted my heart and showed me that life has Ilness and disaster but that can beovercome by Love and happiness, By The love of our Friends, and Family… and The Little things that Do make us happy…
From now on i am going to do anything i can to make me and the others around me happy. and i am going to live Everyday as if it is my last…
So, Thank you Eric… See You in The Summerlands!
Divine_Malevolence's Life List
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1. create art,
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2. Take my Meds....
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3. Get matching Tattoos with my Mom
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4. Stop Abandoning People
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5. Go to a rave
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6. get Married
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7. Visit Mozarts Grave
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8. Visit Oscar wilde's Grave
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9. Sing a song with Passion
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10. be forgiven
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11. Cry because I can
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12. be Missed
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13. be remembered
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14. stop wasting time
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15. see the good in people
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16. Love, and Be Loved unconditionaly
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17. Nurture my creativity
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18. Celebrate the Eight Pagan Feasts this year
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19. be told i am Beautiful
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20. do a striptease
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21. get baptized
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22. finish writing my book
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23. dance naked under the fullmoon
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24. visit Finland
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25. live in Scotland
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26. knit a scarf
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27. learn finnish
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28. sing opera
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29. Get more piercings
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30. sing on broadway
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31. DEal with my depression
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32. become a Dominatrix
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33. backpack across europe
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34. Write a book about my faith and beliefs
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35. live in a castle
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36. love my self
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37. be Truly Broken Hearted
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38. Tell People How I Really Feel
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39. get my own apartment
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I did it 5 days ago
4 years ago
it didnt hurt at all!! Woot, ok it is still a little tender, but it looks ok.
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What Like You have Never wanted to!
4 years ago
Be Free From Everything Every where and Dance and Spin and Sing loudly, Naked under the fullmoon!
