DoggyMommy

Breaking Up is hard to do.

I just broke-up with two toxic friends from college. I feel really good. I stood up for myself, and I spoke my truth. I told them both how I feel; therefore, they are no longer friends. They will be too mad to ever speak to me again. It is kind of sad, really. I have known them for over ten years, and yet they cannot seem to grow beyond their original emotional/spiritual IQ’s. I know that they are good people. I just can’t wait for them to realize that, and then GROW from it. they are the type who treat waitstaff poorly…I can’t handle that. I hate condescending behavior.

Anywho, this is all a part of my “no” saying, and not feeling guilty. I feel great, actually…like a huge burden was lifted from my shoulders. I don’t have to pretend to be their friend. I can just be myself. If I see them at parties, I can be nice. I just don’t have to get trapped in their brands of narcissism any longer.

Score!

One to go.

Christmas put a damper in my “pay-off” schedule. I am also irritated b/c Capital One arbitrarily raised my APR by 10%. ?? I was not aware that they could do this without provocation. I have always paid on time…I have never gone over my limit, or done anything to warrant an increase like this.

I called them, and they said that they will watch my account. If I am “good” for the next 6 months, they may consider lowering my APR again. ?!? What the hell?

So, I immediately transferred all of the balance to my other account. Therefore, one card paid off. Ha! It is kind of nice only to have one bill now. I should have done this eons ago.

In summation: Capital One sucks.

Well…I am still working on this one. I am being very inconsistent. As Alpha, I need to enforce the rules and boundaries EVERY time I need to live ad breathe leadership. It is very difficult to do, especially when leadership is not natural to me. However, when you own TWO dominant females, you must become the strongest female in the pack. I owe it to them and to myself. If I become unable to handle these two dogs, then I have to admit that I cannot own them. They will become a danger to society. I have no one to blame but myself.

I, however, am VERY stubborn. I AM going to win this one. They will fall in line behind me. If I truly love them, I must become Alpha. They expect it, they need it, and they look to me to be their everything. I owe them my leadership.